How to die peacefully?
Search: Help is availableSpeak with someone today National Center for Mental Health Crisis HotlineHours: Available 24/7. Languages: English, Filipino. 0966-351-4518I gasped when that came out on g****e, I looked at the nurse who was fixing the bandage on my arm.
"Excuse me, how many years have you been working here?" I asked, she looked at me and then smiled."4 years." She answered so I nodded, I even saw how she put some hair that escaped on her ear then smiled looking at me, I frowned at what she was doing."Have you ever had patients who died but did not experience pain?" I asked, I saw the frown on her forehead.
"Pardon?" She asked.
"Ms. leave us." The nurse and I looked at the speaker, Gazer with Erelah and Havacco. I saw Gazer and Havacco's disgusted stare at me so I laughed, while Erelah looked at me worried.
The nurse who was fixing the bandage on my arm came out, Havacco and Gazer gave me a strong rebuke so I looked at them annoyed while Erelah continued what the nurse was doing on my arm.
"Are you crazy? What are you doing with your life?" Havacco asked me, I just widened my eyes and then pointed at Erelah with my lips, it looks like he gets what I want to say right away so he took a deep breath.
"Erelah, can you get us some food?" Gazer asked Erelah, Erelah looked at him and then smiled.
"All right, I'll just finish this," Erelah said that's why the three of us silently looked at her and watched her finish putting the bandage on my arm, after she put the bandage on my arm she said goodbye and left to get food, Havacco sat across from me while Gazer was standing in front of me, I took a deep breath then leaned on my hospital bed.
"I lost myself," I said, they remained silent. I laughed then averted my eyes.
"I think my illness is back," I said softly, only the noise of the engine could be heard in the room where I was confined, I looked at the two of them staring at me.
"When I saw the blood, I couldn't think straight," I added, Havacco bowed then took a deep breath.
"I also don't think the drugs our boss is giving me are working anymore." I then looked out of my bedroom window. "These days, I'm starting to have hallucinations and delusions again, I feel like I'm in a small room where all the people I've killed are there and they want to kill me," I said.
"You're good Damon." I looked at Gazer when he said that, he smiled at me then approached me and lightly punched my good arm.
"You just remember what happened to you in the past." He said so I smiled.
"Hopefully, I'm well," I said then looked at Havacco.
"I don't want to go back to a time when I would lose myself again," I whispered while looking at Havacco.A few days later and I was finally released from the hospital, the doctors just gave me the medicine to take to get rid of the pain in my wound that I made myself. During those few days, Erelah was by my side, something I couldn’t understand why.
"Will you apply as my assistant?" I asked in surprise as I turned to look at Erelah who was in front of me smiling and nodding.
"And do you think I'll accept you? I don't need an assistant, I need a coffin." I said then passed her.
"But Gazer said, while your wound hasn't healed yet, you won't be able to do some work here in the house, so he said I'll help you or I'll apply for you as your assistant." She said so I turned around and faced her again.
"I can move, I'll just waste money if I accept you as my assistant, one more thing, this is just a small house of mine, there's not much to clean here because I'm always leaving the house," I said.
"Even if you don't pay me anymore, that's okay." She said so I frowned even more.
"I'll help you--"
"When did I need help?" I asked her, I saw she was stunned and surprised by my question, I took a deep breath and then tried to calm myself.
"Even when I don't need help so you leave and go to Gazer, I want to be alone," I said then turned away from her.
"What do you want to be alone for? So that you can continue to commit suicide?" I was stunned by what she said, I kept my back to her.
"I want to help you not because I feel sorry for you, I want to help you because I am very grateful to you, Gazer told me that you were shot because you reported the man to the police. The man who shot my father. ”I was even more shocked by what she said.
"I don't know how you did that or how you found out that they were, I don't know anything about that, the important thing is that my father has been given justice." He said so I close my eyes in annoyance.
Son of a shark, Gazer told another story, he can just not tell.
"Then, do me a coffee, clean the dirt all over the house, take care of what you want, and I'll sleep," I said then went up the stairs.
"Are you still drinking the coffee?" She asked so I stopped and then looked at her.
"You try to eat the coffee," I said then she stared at me and continued to climb to the top.
"I'll cook your food too!" After she chased me, I didn't answer her, instead, I entered my room and slammed the door shut.
"Damn," I whispered then lay down on my bed.
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