Suicidal
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Damon POV

"Hey, suicidal kid!" I took out of my mouth the paracetamol, biogesic, neozep, alaxan, and the other medications that I'm about to swallow. I looked up at my caller and saw Gazer approaching me. I sniffed and looked at the medicine I had spit out.

"Damn, babies," I said then looked at Gazer who was already next to me.

"What's that medicine for?" He asked then looked at me. "Then coke?" He added then laughed. "I don't know what's going into your brain and making you want to commit suicide." He said he then snatched the coke I was holding from me and handed me a glass of wine which he took inside.

"I also don't know why it's fashionable for an idiot like you to suddenly show up to disturb me to commit suicide," I said and accepted the wine he offered.

"You don't seem to have time to die." He said so I laughed.

"Wow, man," I said so he looked at me badly, In fact, we are only the same age but if he acted like he was older than us. I just shook my head and drank the wine he gave me.

"I hope you put poison to this wine," I said that's why I got a nape from him, I looked at him badly.

"Did you receive your money?" he changed the conversation, I nodded and leaned against his car.

"Your new assignment?" He asked so I took the picture in my pocket and then showed it to him, he immediately took it from me and then looked at it.

"Isn't he the mayor of the other town? Why?" He asked and looked at me.

"I'm just a killer, I'm not a gossip," I said reason for him to look at me. He slapped me back with the picture then took the bottle of beer he had brought earlier and translated the glass we both had.

"It's hard to get through that mayor's bodyguard, how can you kill that?" He asked. I picked up the book titled 'Guide to kill yourself' that was next to me and then looked for a way how to commit suicide.

"Maybe I'll just blow up their house with his bodyguards," I answered while looking for a way to commit suicide.

"Ugly as you thought." He said and I felt him look at the book I was reading.

"This is a good thing to do, try." He said at once pointing to the middle part of the book. 'Drown yourself in the rushing water under the bridge. This method will only make you feel pain for a while. '

I closed the book and then looked at him. "I tried that earlier," I said then scratched my head.

"Oh, why are you still alive?" He asked, I nodded and looked up at the sky.

"A woman appeared, she pulled me. She said she saved me." I said, I felt him look at me.

"Oh? Is she beautiful?" He asked so I looked at him.

"I don't know the definition of beautiful," I replied then turned my gaze back to the sky. There is nothing better when death is in front of you.

"Damn, I feel like the woman is beautiful so you don't want to tell me about it." He said so I laughed softly.

"She's not Death so she is not beautiful to me," I said.

"Stupid." He whispered, I looked at him.

"I am going home," I said then walked closer to my motorbike that was parked next to his car.

"Right away? Say goodbye to the boss first." He said, I took off my helmet and then shook.

"No thanks,  I'm still planning how to kill the mayor," I said then got on my motorbike. "Just tell them I'm ahead," I said, he nodded then approached me and lightly punched my chest.

"Be careful bro." He said so I laughed and turned on my motor light.

"I'd be even happier if you said 'I hope you're unlucky.' “I said, he raised his middle finger so I laughed even harder.

"Wait, I almost forgot your ID." He said and took his wallet from his pocket then took my ID that he borrowed from me the other day.

"Chai Achaz Hussein." He read my name on the ID, I took it from him and put it in my coat pocket. "The distance of Chai Achaz to Damon ah." He teased so I laughed.

"Rodolfo's distance to the Gazer as well," I said so he glared at me, I started my motor and then signaled to him that I was leaving.

I was quietly walking down the dark road to my house when I remembered that I needed to buy muriatic acid for my coffee later. I passed a nearby Ministop and outside then I parked my motor then quietly entered inside the Ministop, I immediately looked for Muriatic Acid but I could not find anything. I reached for my hand and then started to search the inside of the mini stop until I reached the end and finally found what I was looking for. My eyes almost lit up when I read the muriatic acid label.

"Nothing will move with you all! Take out your money!" I peeked at the counter and sniffed to see the three men at the counter holding a knife and a gun while a man's gun was pointed at the cashier and a woman. While the other is starting to clear the money.

I sighed then opened the muriatic acid then smelled it. Can I drink this now? It's a waste of time if I haven't drunk it yet.

"Hey you, raise your hand and give your money and jewelry to me." I looked in front of me, I saw one of the men in front of me, and his knife was pointed at me.

"Do you accept checks? I don't have cash." I said that's why its forehead is so wrinkled.

"Are you kidding me? Take out your wallet!" Irritated he said so I took my wallet and then handed it to him. "I have your watch." He ordered so I gave my watch to him, but before he even got it I asked him.

"How does it feel when I take this muriatic?" I asked, his forehead was very wrinkled.

"What--" He couldn't continue what he was going to say when he suddenly let go of the knife he was holding and fell in front of me, frowned at me, and looked in front of me.

"You again?" We once questioned each other about the woman in front of me while holding the electric stun gun she used on the holdaper in front of me.

"What are you doing here?" We once asked. "I'll be the first to ask," I said.

“I’m buying dog food, and  you?” She asked. "Buying muriatic Acid," I said so she looked at my hand.

"For--" She didn't continue what she was going to say as I pulled her closer to me and poured my muriatic grip on the face of a holdaper approaching her to stab her.

"Hays, that's a pity, pay me later," I told the woman then kicked another man who was approaching us, I immediately wrapped my hand around his neck and snatched his gun then kicked him.

How long have I been working to be safe? I quickly aimed the gun at the man who was about to release the grenade.

"One wrong act you will see your death." I coldly told the man why he could release the grenade, I immediately took it and looked at it. "Does it hurt when it explodes?" I asked the man who suddenly wrinkled his forehead.

"Put down your gun, the cops are coming." The woman next to me said so I looked at her and then gave her the gun, she accepted it confused.

"Papa God, I'm sorry I'm holding something sinful." She whispered, I approached the area where I got the muriatic acid then took one and walked over to the cashier who was crying while looking at me.

"The woman will pay for it," I said then showed the muriatic I was holding.

"Hey, where are you going?" The woman asked anxiously while holding the gun.

"At home," I replied then got out of the mini stop and went to my motorbike, I immediately put on my helmet, I could see the road where policemen were going here, I immediately got on my motorbike and started.

"The suspects are inside," I told a policeman that they had just come out of the patrol and then drove my motorbike to the house.

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