"Shi'er, I know Mom is wrong. I should've told you earlier. I just.. don't want you get worried. You're too precious and fragile. You're my youngest that's why you are also stubborn.. just like your Dad."
I screamed at the phone, "You don't want me to get worried?! Then from now on, I'm not going to be your daughter!""Shi'er! Liu Shishi!"I stared vacantly at nothing. Remembering my last words to Mom, I couldn't help but feel remorseful. How could I say that to Mom?"My lady!"Jin'er hastily ran to me with her panic-stricken face. I almost stumbled when she yanked me.. far enough from the lake. Then Jin'er proceeded her usual routine, she turned me on my left side, then on my right, inspecting my body for any visible wounds.Back to my world, I was a person that doesn't own many things, nevertheless I studied so hard that I didn't even get a boy during college days and when I reached adulthood, I did my best to achieved everything I have. I was very contented with that simple life.My routine: sleep, work, iQiyi.My friends used to tell me that I have a boring life. (Well, I loved my boring life in the real world.) They would joked around with me on how my love life was basically zero. They still think that I can't moved on from my first crush in high school.Hmp. Not really.I just don't want any drama in life. I have two older siblings. Figures huh. They're a bit protective.. and difficult. Witnessing my devil sisters getting married but still being pampered and bullied by them and there's also my in-laws, ha.. I also thought being single forever is not that bad.Suddenly having lost all.. Mom, my family, my friends and my boring life.'Why did I listened to that nerdy friend? Why did I read that d*mn novel?! I swear when I get back home.. I'm going to beat her ass***. That nerd!'Without warning, I unluckily transmigrated into a novel where here, the author had everyone at his disposal. Where only the main characters were all that matter. Where they're the only people who'll have a happy ever after."I'm fine." I reassured her.Jin'er didn't believe me though. Despite being younger than me, she had a habit of nagging like a mother hen. I can't really argue with this girl."Don't do this again. How many times do I have to tell you my lady? Take your bodyguards with you or just Lu Kai will do. You can't keep wandering alone. It's dangerous, my lady."I know where her unnecessary worries was coming from.Because five years ago, when I woke up in this strange world, I was extremely afraid and I was determined to go back to my world. So desperate.. that I don't care even I'd lose my life. I don't care even I have to die here just to return to my old life."My lady, why do you give me the impression that as though one day, you're going to disappear? Please my lady, don't do this again. I really–" Jin'er choked her next words.I chewed my lower lip and studied her worried expression from under my lowered lashes. "I'm sorry."The first few months I transmigrated weren't easy for me, I can't accept the reality of myself living in this novel world.Five years ago, I tried suicide. I was scared and helpless. I just want to go back. I cut my wrist. I jumped into the lake and I even tried to hanged myself. In the end, all failed. I was saved every time.I sighed. I must've scared Jin'er and the whole manor.Then one night, a voice came into my dreams;"Play your role well. Then die in Bai Suxin's death day. That's the only way you can go back to your world."So.. I can only endure.According to Li Cha, as decreed by the emperor, because of his meritorious deeds and bringing the empire continuous victories, Li Han was ordered to return to the capital.If my calculation was right, by this time, Li Han had already met the female lead. He'll bring Chu Wanwan with him to Li Empire as a prisoner princess and trophy.Chu Wanwan, rumored to be a heavenly beauty, the second princess of the Chu Empire was dragged to the strange Li Empire.——Spring came.Drums were beating. Trumpets were playing. All in armors, swords and spears, these two hundred thousands of soldiers from the Nan Army and their terrifying bloodlust aura, fresh from the battlefield shook the bustling capital. These devil heroes were hyperactively welcomed by the people. A new rumor was circling among the commoners these days, 'the Nan Army were immortals.' That they've cheated death so many times just like how their leader, Li Han was able to survive throughout his dark years.Since then, no one dared to mention about the existence of the 'Dog Prince' or the 'Bullied Prince' of the Li Empire, as if all those bad events never happened.Li Han, the fourth prince was the 'Immortal Nan King'. Nothing else.The next day, the emperor held a welcoming party for the male lead. The royals and the palace officials and their family were all invited.
No one wanted to missed this chance to meet again the infamous prince.I gripped my skirt, as I stared at the female lead. Chu Wanwan was extremely beautiful. I doubt that they have plastic surgery in this era. Her face was the definition of perfection.Her phoenix eyes, the lovely mole on the tip of her small nose, her heart-shaped lips, and when she smile, the cute and prominent dimples on both of her cheeks was so eye-catching and attractive, making her look more youthful and approachable.No wonder she's the female lead and Li Han fell in love for this young girl at first sight. Chu Wanwan was truly exquisite. Bai Suxin can't really be compared to this goddess. So sad.It's like the swan and the duck.The huge difference!I quietly sat beside my parents. Five years in this world, five years of being Bai Suxin, I picked up a few things. The Bai's didn't even notice the difference between me and their real daughter. When it comes to calligraphy, music, dance and poetry, my skills were very mediocre just like how Bai Suxin's in the novel.The male lead and the female lead are now finally sitting together. A perfect picture for their fans. I tried not to look at them. I want to lie low for now. Today, Bai Suxin don't have a scene. Because I'm only here to act envious towards the female lead.The emperor, just like a puppet requested/ordered the enemy princess Chu Wanwan to perform a dance in the banquet.My mouth unconsciously gaped open. 'I wish I have my camera.'No wonder, she was famous and known as an extremely gifted dancer of the Chu Empire.Chu Wanwan enticed the crowd with her frivolous seductive gaze and the corner of her lips were slightly lifted, seemingly haughty.Her plum blossom-inspired C
I learned my lesson. I am not allowed to interfere or change anything in the novel.Or else, things will go awry.Five years ago, due to my interference, I insisted Bai Meili to postpone the trip to Yanyi Temple. As a result, it changed her fate and the people around me.Bai Meili was supposed to die that year in a carriage accident on her way to Yanyi Temple. That time, I was reckless. Too simple-minded. Too soft-hearted and thought I have save a life.I didn't know that I traded someone's lives with hers. 'Two innocent lives.'Due to the fact that she didn't die, two weeks later, when Mingle was caught red handed by stealing a bun, Bai Meili ordered Mingle and her mother to be send to Red District causing them to suicide.In the novel, after Bai Meili's death, the cruelty to the slaves in the manor has stopped. The pair of mother and daughter don't need to steal a bun because of hunger. Mingle was supposed to lived, meet and soon marry his true love. Her husband-to-be, a nobleman wa
"Since the banquet, I can't seem to forget the outstanding talent of the Chu Princess.""What's outstanding about that? She only knows how to seduce men.""Seduce?" In a fake way, I showed a shock expression."That barbaric princess is now just a pitiful commoner. Nothing compared to our pure-hearted Lady Bai." Li Cha sneered.Suddenly we heard laughters nearby."Who's there?!"One of Li Cha's maid whispered to her, "It's the Commoner, Your Highness."When Chu Wanwan and her maids saw us, they stopped laughing and hastily saluted us. She's a commoner now, but she still has maids? This only proves her unyielding position in the palace."Greetings to Princess of Laoyang."Chu Wanwan was wearing a beautiful pink hanfu. There was no difference on her clothing to a noble like me. When Li Cha walked forward to slap her, Chu Wanwan was so shock. She stood frozen. "Ha! You don't even know the proper etiquette to greet an imperial princess?""Miss Chu, you should say, 'Commoner Chu Wanwan gre
My mouth opened. I stammered; "Y-your Highness."Eyes straight ahead, Li Han walked forward with an indifferent expression, "Hold tight if you don't want to fall."My eyes brimmed with unshed tears. And perhaps due to pain or melancholy, I hid my face to his wide chest. I remember Mom, whenever I got injured or sad, Mom will hurriedly travel eight hours to the city to comfort me.Acting spoiled, "It hurts."I felt his body stiffened, "I'm here."After few minutes, we reached the Qixiang Palace. Concubine Zhi was shocked when she saw his son carrying a woman."Han'er, what happened to Lady Bai?"Li Cha interrupted, "It's that Commoner's fault.""Wh-what?!""Call the imperial physician!" Li Han's voice boomed, obviously annoyed. All hearts jumped, especially mine. Scared me to death!Li Han gently placed me in the soft chair, "Th-thank you."My head was in disarray. I don't know what to think first; my injury or the unexpected outcome of today's scene? 'What's happening, Author-san?'Mi
"What do you mean, Your Highness?" I almost sighed when the male lead released my chin.But then, the moment Li Han lowered his eyes, he suddenly grabbed my hand. Noticing the scar, Li Han took my hand to his face, inspecting it more closely. I don't even dare to breathe.I watched how the corner of his lips little by little, formed a victorious smile. The hair on my neck stood on end as he let out a melodic cackle of laugh. Li Han laughed so hard as if he discovered something precious or as if he heard something very hilarious.When Li Han stopped laughing like a bipolar person, there was the sudden chills like I was in a horror movie. 'Mom, he's scaring me!'Li Han stared at me as he leaned forward. He had now, a sly grin on his handsome face. "Bai Suxin."I can only stood frozen like a clueless duck. The male lead carefully stretched my index finger, then slowly seized it into his mouth.I gasped."I told you, I'm going to chew you all up."My eyes widened. Alarm bells were ringin
I ordered Lu Yi to give two silvers and his horse to the two gentlemen.Before the carriage began to move again, I heard one of them shouted, "Thank you, my lady. We will be forever be indebted to you."It's not easy being the two-faced Bai Suxin. Actually, it's tiring to be her and I went out of character sometimes. Dear Lord! I'm human. Sometimes my lips slipped and accidentally spat a 'curse' which a big taboo for women in this era. 'A big no-no! Pei! Your father!'I remembered the comical and jaw-drop expression of Jin'er when she first heard me cursed. It was a funny sight! She looked like she's gonna faint or as if she's carrying the world upon her shoulders.Jin'er insisted to let me wear the white-transparent clothing on my face whenever we go out of the manor. As an ancient Chinese woman, I must be reserve and can't just show my face to the public. Honestly, it was so bothersome. I'm not even a beauty. No need to cover this plain face people.As I bear a noble status, I must
Chu Wanwan was now as pale as ghost. She looked so shock. Standing at the edge of the lake, no one noticed that I intentionally shoved her back to the ground and let myself fall into the frozen lake."Lady Bai!""Someone help! Lady Bai is in the water!""My lady!"I pretended to struggle against the water. I was flailing my arms, "He-Help! Help!" Inside my head, I was cursing nonstop. The water was so cold. It's killing me!"Help!" To be more convincing, I held my breath, letting myself submerged into the water for few seconds. I must overcome my breathing reflex. Must not run out of breath under water. One. Two. Three. My forehead creased. I opened my eyes, looking around in the dark water. 'Where the heck is my savior?!'This near-death scheme of Bai Suxin was not very smart. Now, I am the one who's suffering!I squinted my eyes, noticing a shadow swimming towards me. 'You're late, Lu Kai!' After this scene, I'm going to deduct my bodyguard's salary for this month. I angrily took
Let's forget about the kiss.It's not really considered a kiss. The male lead did that to saved me. And about the other night, he did that to.. expressed his resentment, right?'Don't panic, Liu Shishi. Don't panic. Deep breath.'"My lady, please walk slowly. You're still not well."When we reached the Zhongcui Palace, the seventh princess was supervising the punishment of the female lead. Chu Wanwan was lying on her front in a wooden long chair. There were eunuchs on both of side, with heavy wooden bars on their hands.I saluted. "Greetings to the Princess of Laoyang and His Highness Nan King." I softened my voice. "Your Highnesses, please don't punish Miss Chu.""Lady Bai, you.. Why are you here?" Li Cha frowned. Then she glanced to her side– to his silent fourth brother, Li Han. She angrily pointed her finger to the female lead. "This vixen tried to hurt you. It's the second time. She must be punish severely!"I said lightly, "It's just a misunderstanding, Your Highness. It's not he
"During his youth, my old man is prettier than Jiangke. My sweet husband. The love of my life."Liu Mei stabbed her cake, her eyes glazing over the cafe. "Excuse me. Liu Shishi, stop daydreaming. You never had a boyfriend. As in. Ever.""I'm married. For fifty-one years.""You.. you're crazy. Remind me again, why did I allow you to stay at my place? You should stop reading those weird novels. If you don't stop, I'm going to sue that author. He certainly did something to your tiny brain. Tsk. Ben dan." (*stupid egg: idiot)I pouted. 'This girl.. is really hateful.'"Jiêjiê, look what I got." I smirked at her. I raised my hand, kissing the colorful red wallet. Pay back time!"That.. that's my wallet."Looking at my wicked sister shaking her head comically, made me feel soooooo good. I giggled. He-he. I nodded to her slowly. Teasingly."No. You can't. Liu Shishi!"I smiled more, mischievously. I know how my sister love money so much. Compared to me who spend money like water; Liu Mei was
Wanwan said, I should cherish the memories. She said, I should move on and be happy because you're already in heaven.F**k that.If you're going to leave, I'd erase every remnant of your existence in this world. I'd destroy everything you had touched. Everything connected to you. Everyone you loved.'If you're going to leave..''.. Please, bring me with you.'Why can't they understand that I don't want just the memories of you? I want you; the entire you. Not just.. your shell. 'Please, come back to me.'If I must, I'd destroy everything to get you back. So you'll choose to return, get mad and scold me for being unreasonable.'If I could turn back time, will you finally look at me? If I was given another chance, will you be able to love me?''If I meet you again, then I..'What did I say back then to Eunuch Xu? Something about Bai Suxin being the most dangerous person I met. I came back. I traveled back in time. 'This time, I will protect you. This time, you can't escape.'"I know y
Some were sad with their ill-fated lives but I'm not. I want to detached myself from life; be numb and stay unfeeling. I know from the very beginning that Mother hated me as she hated Father Emperor. Mother won't let me forget that fact— by giving me the bitter congee every night."I want to be a good person for my son. I also want to be a good mother. But Your Majesty took everything away from me. You are the one who made me a monster!"All the servants looked at us with their condemning eyes. They didn't bother concealing netheir their profound contempt to Mother nor their pitiful gazes to me."You told me, if I give birth to your child, Your Majesty will spare Yichen's life. Yet in the end, you still ordered his assassination!" Mother kneeled infront of Father Emperor, laughing and crying at the same time.I heard from the servants, before Mother became one of the thousand beauties by Father Emperor's side, she used to have a fiance but that person died because of father."Who do y
Warning: Reader discretion is advised.——His Highness Nan King made no further movement that's when I realized, he was waiting for a response. I let go of the blanket and gently held his idol-type face. I can't really pushed the male lead in the chest or shoulders, he's wounded."A kiss.""Just one kiss. You need time to heal."Li Han closed his eyes; when he opened them again, there was a mysterious glint in them."I understand, wife. A kiss."Just imagine the surprise look I made when I heard the dog prince agreed. 'What is he saying with that puppy expression?' It makes me want to pat him again. 'See? The male lead is reasonable? What a cute puppy.' That's.. what I thought and I was damn.. wrong.I was never been this wrong because if I can, I'll slap myself and push my dumb self to the cliff. He lied! No matter how cute he is, Li Han is still a dog! I should've known, that this will happen. It's a scam!'Bad dog! Bad dog!' *Wahhh!!When Li Han shoved his tongue inside my mouth,
As a matter of fact, I really don't have any idea on how to act infront of the male lead. I mean.. now the story has long changed its course, I was unsure if should I still act as a bully to him or what?Looking at the male lead puppy appearance, I can't bear to. I feel like I'm executing an animal abuse. (*lol)"Suxin? Is that you?""Your Highness—""No. Call my name. Call me by my name. Tell me, it's you. Please.."'Li Han..' I bit my tongue, his name almost escape my lips. "Prove it to me. Prove it to me that you're Bai Suxin. Please..""Though, this must be another dream; can you.. just let me deceive myself for once?"'What is he saying?'"Li Han, why are you crying? Stop. I said, stop."I stretched out my hands. As my fingers touched the tears on his cheeks, I hardened my heart and scolded him: "Don't cry. Don't you dare cry for me."I closed my eyes in frustration, unable to understand what's happening right now. But I was certain that he's cornering me. I know that there were
Alarmed by what I'm hearing; I took a step back, instinctively pushing the emperor away from me in the process.We looked at each other, both had a shock expression in our faces. When he recovered, Li Rui stretched his hand towards me again. "Lady Bai, I..""Your Majesty!"Bai Yan with red eyes and her glamorous red dress approached us. She glanced at me in angry manner; I gulped.'What duck-sh!t scene is this?!'This is the Prince Palace, so why are you people keep coming here? Disturbing this villainess peaceful life as an abandoned wife. Stop bringing this villainess a dog drama!"Greetings to Her Highness The Empress." I saluted.'Bai Yan, it's not what you think it is. You're not wearing a green-hat. Believe me.'"An important letter came from the Nan Army."After reading the said letter; Li Rui stood there silently with a complicated expression on his face.Bai Yan smirked. "I suggest to let the Nan Queen depart immediately."Just like that, I was thrown to my mortal enemy.. the
"Worship the heaven, earth and the ancestors."That moment when you talk sh*t and have to eat your own words. (ཀ ∧ ཀ )"First kowtow for harmony."Red symbolizes good luck, happiness and prosperity. Well, marrying the male lead, I.. highly doubt that. Oh dear, aside from PTSD.. starting that day, I also think, I'm having an erythrophobia (*fear of color red)."Second kowtow to the heaven and the earth."Don't asked me why I didn't run away because I sincerely tried numerous times and failed miserably. The Bai couple locked me up in my own bedchamber for a month before the wedding day."Third kowtow to each other."Just like that, I became a married woman. At the young age of fifteen, the duck villainess married the dog male lead who suffers a facial paralysis.After the wedding ceremony, I don't know if I should be grateful or what when the male lead received an imperial edict by Emperor Li Hai, ordering him to immediately depart to the Southern Border.I think that day, my soul left
"The lady must've like the Dog Prince that's why she's helping him every time."Heaven ah! I never felt so offended like this before. Ever! I wanted to slapped them with my mêimäô. (*veil hat)My eyes squinted at the people in the next table and looked at them like they have five heads? Are you.. freaking serious? I'm helping the male lead because it's what written in the plot, that's all."They must be in a secret relationship."*cough*cough* I never thought that I'd die the second time.. by choking on noodles. 'What relationship? Ill-fated relationship?'Jin'er lightly tapped my back while passing me a glass of water. "Slowly, my lady."Like my life was depended on it, I gulped the water rapidly to force the food down, then I heard them say again: "The Crown Princess candidate must've seduced the Dog Prince."Oh God Lord, jiū jiū wō! (*help me)"My lady!" Jin'er was holding my whole arm, apparently restraining me."Don't stop me Jin'er. I'm going to fight them." I gritted my teeth i
I really don't know what to feel. This was already my second transmigration to this sadomasochistic novel, so of course, I already know my way around here. I was less desperate and had less doubts. I was braver this time.The history was already written. My regrets from my first transmigration, I don't want to make them the second time.I put meticulous attention to each details of the original plot; I promised to myself that I won't make the same mistakes I made before and planned to make good decisions on my own without errors.'Jayo!'"Crown prince brother, stop staring at Lady Bai. Hmp."I couldn't help but smile thinking that this bratty little seventh princess tried to protect this villainess until the end. She's really a good friend.'I'm afraid to leave you here. Come with me to Du Empire. I will protect you there.'Li Cha linked her arms with me; fluttered her long eyelashes as she taunted her little victory to her older brother. I sighed at the two, watching them bickering