Max | After
We sit in Room Seven, an empty classroom. It's not a room I particularly like to be in. It was our Year Seven and Eight Maths classroom, so immediately associated with bad memories. Usually, I strangely love Maths. But the teacher I had those two years made me want to drive a knife through the subject. I have similar feelings towards Shakespeare. Only, I want to resurrect him with Grace's coven of witchcraft practicing highlighters just to kill him all over again.
"How did you become friends?" he asks. "If you remember."
"Dad thought I was lonely. Her mum thought she was lonely. They brought us together for a play date and we were stuck with each other, I guess."
"Just best friends?" Davidson raises an eyebrow.
"Boys and girls can be friends, you know," I snap. "It's the twenty-first century."
"Did she have a boyfriend?"
"As far as I know, she didn't."
"Did she want to have one?" he questions. "Anyone she was interested in?"
"Tristan Fell. He's in our class." I pause. "She talked to him a lot after exam week. He was in her frequently contacted list."
"Did she ever mention him to you?"
I shrug. "Probably. Said he was fit a couple times. They were doing GCSE PE together."
"Max, what can you tell me about this photo?"
He holds up his phone and my throat goes dry. There are four people alive in this picture. The fifth is Grace. She's in her coffin which had been nailed shut for the burial after everyone had one last look at her. Carlos, Zeph, Tristan and I are carrying the coffin from the tiny church in school we never use to the freshly dug grave.
"We were pallbearers," I say blankly. "Why?"
"The other three guys have clearly been crying. But you haven't. I want to know why."
"I'm a boarding school—"
"Don't give me that crap," he says sharply. "There's another reason."
"I don't cry," I say bluntly. "Not in front of people. And anyway, Grace would've laughed at all those saps crying at her funeral."
"Her father didn't cry either."
"He's a boarding school kid too. And he's Nick fucking Covey. What did you expect?" I reply. "He's not the kind of guy who cries."
Nick Covey is— like Dad told me— heartless as one can be. They've been best mates since they were kids. So it's fine for him to say that, I guess. Just like it's fine for Carlos to tease me about my weird eye colour. Just like it's fine for Kaci and Zeph to joke around about being shorter than most with us. So Dad laughs about Mr Covey being heartless and Mr Covey laughs about him becoming a dancer instead of a doctor like he was planning to be.
"Can I go now?" I ask after a long pause. "I'm missing Chemistry."
"You can go," he agrees. "I'll call you back if I have any follow-up questions. Tristan, right?"
"Tristan."
I can't get out of that room fast enough. I go to Chemistry and after apologising for being late, I sit through the lesson without taking anything in. Ms Keller's dyed her mousy brown hair a deep red and— just like in Year Eight— she's acting like she doesn't think anyone will notice. God, teachers treat us like such idiots sometimes. We have eyes, you know. As she turns to write something on the whiteboard, I whip my phone out and type out a message at lightening fast speed to Tristan.
Max
Threw you under the bus with Davidson. Grace had a crush on you and thought you were fit.
Tristan
Just fucking great.
And he's calling me in NOW!
I'm throwing you under this bus too bastard
Max
Just tell him that we didn't like each other because we almost failed Year 8 music together
Tristan
My stand by me was a masterpiece. You just can't play in time.
I'll tell you how it goes later in Artemis Tower.
I switch to the group chat to see everyone's replies once again. I press clear chat and the messages disappear, leaving the background of a Hunger Games poster like it's a new chat. They would've done the same, I just know it.
"You wanna put that away?" the person next to me hisses.
I lift my head to see Frankie Weber glaring at me. It makes me hate Ms Keller even more. Of all people taking GCSE Chemistry in Year Eleven, why do I have to be sitting next to her? As usual, her pale hair falls to her shoulders in a perfect sheet of blonde. Her green eyes are cold and narrowed and I wish I could say this was the first time she looked at me like this.
"You have a problem?" I grumble, shoving it into my blazer. "Everyone knows you and Viv just send Snaps to each other during lessons."
"At least we aren't being suspected for murder," she whispers.
I freeze. "Davidson just wanted to know what Grace was like. And if you haven't noticed because I know how hard it is for you to notice something other than yourself, I was Grace's best friend."
"Oh, really? Then why did she spend more time with Tristan in the last half term than you?" Frankie's voice and her smirk makes my skin crawl.
It's true. It's fucking true and Frankie knows it.
"Shut up, Frankie."
"You scared, Maximus?" Her voice is sneering. "Scared they'll find out about the fight? They will. They'll find out about Alton Towers. They'll even find out about Vivienne."
"And you think they won't find out about the dining hall that morning?" I whisper. "Come on, Frankie. We all have secrets. And mine are all about who threw up on Oblivion and who didn't. Yours are about motive."
"I didn't kill her."
"Tell it to Davidson," I hiss.
The bell clangs above us and Ms Keller gives the sign to pack up. I throw my books into my bag and walk to Maths, my head spinning. God. Everything Frankie said was true. They will find out about the fight Grace and I had. They will find out about Alton Towers the half term after exam week. They'll find out about Vivienne too.
After we've been given the searing plan in Maths and I'm thanking God for being put at the back next to Kaci.
"How was it?" she asks.
"Fine," I answer. "But Frankie's being a bitch."
Kaci rolls her eyes. "God. Can't she keep her nose out of it? Everyone knows she started the cat fight with Grace."
"But she's right about some stuff." I lower my voice. "We have a lot of secrets. And clearing chats won't hide all of them."
"I'll try to find her scrapbook," she replies. "It can't be that hard, right? She took it to school with her all last year."
"When you do, just cover it all with Chris Hemsworth."
She makes a face. "Why? Would she had written something scandalous in it? It's not like there's going to be anything important."
"You never know." I write down the first equation. "She might've written something. It's not like she ever let us look at it."
We don't talk about it anymore. We sit through the lesson and listen to Mr Farley go on about how important this year is. He's also expecting us all to take A-Level Maths which, let's be honest, less than half of us will do.
"I need to go meet Tristan," I tell Kaci as the bell rings.
"I'll come," she says immediately. "I need to talk to him."
"Why?" I ask suspiciously.
"You threw him under the bus with the crush thing, so he's going to throw someone else under the bus. We need to find out who. And I like to have my story straight, Maxie."
In Artemis Tower, Tristan is on edge. He's chewing on his nails while pacing anxiously and he flinches as I close the door behind us.
"How'd it go?" I ask.
"He knows something's wrong," Tristan says, tearing at a hangnail. "He wants to know about the party. Who threw it, who invited us, why we went."
"Shit!" Kaci groans. "How can we explain this bloody school tradition without ratting everyone out?"
"No one's stupid enough to say what happens," I assure them. "And even if they do, what can happen? About twenty teenagers dancing on the beach on the last night of school isn't something they can arrest us for."
"The alcohol," Tristan points out.
"A half empty bottle of vodka that Henley shouldn't have had anyway." I glance towards Kaci, seeing her warm to my idea. "Come on, guys. We're clean. The only thing he has on us is that we weren't telling the truth about why Grace and I were fighting. Or hell, that we were fighting in the first place."
"We do look pretty okay," Kaci admits. "I'll spread the word."
"But they'll find out about why Grace turned that way," Tristan whispers when Kaci shoes are clattering down the stairwell. "Her change."
"That's for someone else to worry about."
But the look in his eyes says that it's our problem. The look in his eyes says that he knows what I don't. He knows why Grace turned the way she did and why someone could've killed her for it because there's no damn way this was an accident. Tristan knows more than any of us.
Tristan might be next.
Violet | After"What do you think of... Tristan?" Kaci asks as we move through the dining hall in House."Which one's he?" I ask."The dark one with the Edgar Allen Poe." She jerks her head to a boy reading while systematically putting forkfuls of pasta into his mouth."He's cute," I giggle. "Let me guess, he's claimed by some crazy boarding school girl.""Naw, we don't do that," she laughs. "But he is sorta off limits. Anyway, you get to meet Max tonight. He's the one with Fall Out Boy."Sitting at the table I've eaten breakfast and lunch at today is a boy with dark hair and headphones. He's one of the guys who was sitting on the stage with the rest of the important people in assembly this morning. If my memory serves right, he's the youngest prefect in history."How come he wasn't at breakfast or lunch?"
Max | BeforeThey look like us. Mr Kebran, Mr Covey, Mr Fell and Mr Salvatore all sit together and they look like us. I don't know where the women are, Kaci took them off about an hour ago and they are a no-show for lunch. My father is still in Paris, arriving in two days. It's the earliest he could arrange the trip for. I try not to resent the fact that the parents of all my friends got here within twenty-four hours of her death and mine couldn't. His absence is abundantly obvious to me, a gap between Nick Covey and Matteo Salvatore."This is creepy," Tristan says, also staring at the table of fathers. "Is he still carving that headstone?"Matteo Salvatore arrived while carving Grace's details into a slab of stone with a marble angle on the top. Carlos gets the talent with woodwork from him. Mr and Mrs Covey insisted he didn't have to, but he insisted that he did."If I could do this whe
Violet | AfterThe days begin to become more bearable. A routine is established and I follow it like everyone else. Wake up, get ready for school, eat breakfast, go to school, eat lunch, finish school, do homework, do some kind of activity, go to bed, do it all again.So it's a shock when Saturday comes and the alarm stays silent. Kaci is awake too, on her phone in bed. Her dark hair is fanned out across the pillow, black against the white and pink of the pillowcase."Cool," I answer. "Um, I kind of wanted to ask you something.""Shoot." She shuts up and runs a hand through her hair like a comb."Remember that girl you told me about? Your old roommate? Was her name Grace?" The words tumble out quickly."Yeah," she says. "Her name was Grace. Why?""Just wondering. She's very popular online." 
Max | AfterIf I had a pound every single damn time someone's told me to smile over this past week, I would be a goddamn millionaire. Everyone has been saying it. Mr Gilbert, my other teachers, Carlos, Zeph, Kaci, even Margie, one of the the cooks at school. Grief counselling isn't exactly how I'd love to spend my Sunday, but at least it buys me another free day from Viv. Thank God I don't share any lessons with her."Smile, Max," Dr Summers says with a sickening sweet one of her own."I'm guessing you're scared of the dentist, Max," she says."Who wants to look at people's dirty mouths all day for a living?" I mumble. "And I'm not scared of the dentist. He's kind of nice actually, gives me stickers even though I'm almost sixteen."Dr Martha Summers smiles again. It doesn't reach her eyes. Her eyes are pale blue in colour. At first, I'd been painfully remi
Violet | BeforeIt's the first time I've stepped into Jackson High for a month. No one asks where I've been or why I disappeared so suddenly. Everyone heard about Cassie. About the fire. About how we were hanging out when it happened. They must think we were watching a chick flick or something, not contacting her dead boyfriend from beyond the grave.I walk through the cafeteria, head down as I carry my tray to the back of the room. But people are in my way, waiting for me to look up and talk to them."Hi," one of them says.I almost jump out of my skin. All my senses have been sharpened since that night, ghost senses and normal senses. When I walked past the cemetery on my way to school today, my head was filled with voices. And the old man resting on a bench reeked of death, like he's going to die soon. I look up to see Audrey, Bianca and Dana- Cassie's best friends.<
Max | BeforeI'm drowning. Water is filling my mouth as someone pushes me further under the surface of the cold and murky waters of the sea outside Rosewood. Panic fills me just as quickly as water as I struggle against them, trying to scream.The hands fall away and I list my head above the water again, gasping for breath. In and out. In and out. In and out. But then they're back. They're back and this time they aren't leaving. It was a trick. A cruel, cruel trick. Letting me think of live just to kill me.Before I can scream, I jolt into consciousness."I'm fine," I whisper to myself, hugging my knees to my chest. "I'm fine. I'm fine.""Max? You okay, mijo?" It's Dad, in a dark T-shirt and shorts at my door."I'm fine," I repeat for the dozenth time. "I'm fine, okay?""What was the dream about?"&nbs
Violet | After"What are we doing tonight?" Zeph asks, crunching on a bag of chips that seem to have materialised out of thin air."Prefect stuff," Max answers, shoving a book into his backpack. "I'll be busy till dinner.""Violin lesson and then dance practice," Kaci adds. "I'm out till dinner too.""I'm doing this club with the Year Sixes," Carlos says."Please don't say you're booked too, Violet." Zeph turns to me pleadingly, holding out the chip packet. "I'll split these with you.""Actually, I'm free," I answer, extracting a chip from the packet.Zeph grins. "Great!""Aw, Zeph's found a new best friend," Max says, nudging him laughingly.It's the first time I've seen him smile, really smile. Usually, they're forced and pained. He has a nice smile, warm and friend
Grace | BeforeI pretend not to notice Tristan trying to get my attention during the assembly. He's sitting right behind me to my annoyance and kicking my chair gently every now and then, trying to get a reaction. I'm tempted to nudge Max and whisper that Tristan's irritating me knowing he'll go all protective. Big brother mode as Kaci would laugh. But knowing that he'll do that causes a warm feeling in my chest, one I cling to desperately."No we can't." I begin walking away fast towards Physics."Grace, come on," he protests, following me. "I need to talk to someone. I feel like I'm going insane.""Get in line."My shoes clatter as I jog up the stairs towards the classroom, towards Ms Fields who makes us sit in silence for the first five minutes as we do the starter activity and the register. Suddenly, Physics seems welcoming compared to talking to Tristan. Bu