12:38pm. That was the umpteenth time I had looked at my wrist watch. Every now and then I would turn my head to the door. Everything was going by slowly and this lecture was a waste of time because I couldn't concentrate. My course material was on my desk. I rubbed my palms together trying to keep them warmer. I looked to the door again, what was I expecting to see at the door? I felt an itch that was crawling down my back. I so badly needed to scratch it, and then I felt another and then another. I yawned, looked at my watch. 12:39pm.I looked at the professor, he was pointing at a diagram on the clear white board. If it weren't for my strong will, I would have slept off. I was worried about Asher. He has been on my mind, he's been the one distracting and disrupting my thoughts. “The lecture has ended." The professor said and I was the first to stand. I looked around and found out that I was the only one standing, I had stood too quickly. I turned to

I was drifting to sleep. I held to the blanket that Anderson had placed on me. I knew that he was in the room with me and I wanted to stay conscious but I couldn't. His words coming back to me.“Nobody cares about me." I had said. “Can't you see that I care?." He was telling the truth wasn't he? I knew a liar and Anderson doesn't lie. He cared about mez but in what way, certainly not in a romantic way. “Asher, I was worried about you. I haven't been able to concentrate on anything since you left." I smiled. The words made something in my belly crawl. “... I care about you, get it into your head."“Anderson, leave me alone." I started to think, his words were personal, too personal to be blank and ordinary. Does he love me too? “Show me who you are, tell me who you are, who are you?. “ I couldn't tell him, I would never tell him. If he knew who I was, our connection is over. I'm so fucked Anderson, if only you understand. “You're not fucked." He had

I turned to the window and my eyes fell on Asher. At first I couldn't believe it, I thought I was just seeing things, but he was there. It wasn't just my eyes. He was holding an umbrella over his head and another one beside me. It was for me, wasn't it. The last time I saw him, he was peacefully sleeping, now he was standing in the rain looking like the boogyman. He had this cold look in his face, I turned to look at Bridgette, oh, that was why he was angry.... I was with his girl. I stood up but he wasn't in the window anymore, he had started to walk away. I stood in the door of the cafe and I shouted his name, but he didn't reply, he was just walking. I thought about walking in the rain to meet him but I thought better, the rain would be too cold. But Asher was angry at me and It was all a misunderstanding. I shouted his name a few times but still, he didn't look back. I found my legs going forward as if I wasn't in control of it, and before I knew it, I was

It was half past twelve in the afternoon. I knew that Anderson would be having a lecture. I turned open the door knob and peeked in, he wasn't in the room. I took my luggages, all four of them and I slipped out of the room the same way I slipped in. When I got to the hotel, I opened the luggages to check if I had packed everything. Inside the third travel bag, I saw a note. It said, from Anderson Andersons. I studied the note for a while without reading it. He had written me a note. I decided that it was time to read the note. “Asher. I saw the look in your eyes when you were about to leave me in the rain that day, you didn't really want to leave me, you were just too angry and you made the decision out of anger and now I come home to find your suitcases lined up. Except from the suit case, there's no signs of you. I know all the types of Asher, I know that because you showed all of your sides to me, consciously and otherwise. The Asher I saw leaving me in the rain

“Was I that much of a bad person?." I asked him. " You had to leave me with nothing. ““No, you're not a bad person son, it's not about you, it's about your children. I did it for them."“Bullshit. How could you do this to me, how could you do this to your own flesh and blood."“You won't understand now, but maybe later, you will."“Understand what? That you gave off everything and left me without a dime.?."“No, I didn't leave you with nothing. I left you with a good life, you won't be as busy as me son, you would have kids and live a normal life, spend time with your family, stop to admire the sky and the flowers…."“And live in a shack?." I asked him cutting him off. “It's funny you mentioned a house. I sold the houses too son."“You have to be kidding me."“I'm not." He said looking straight at me.“Why?."“I just told you why."“Your reason didn't add up."“What do you mean didn't add up?." “Your reasons are senseless. There must be a truth behind them that you're trying to hid