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All Chapters of SETH RIVERA AND THE ULTIMATE BLACK CARD : Chapter 181
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Would You Ever Turn Back?
Phoebe nodded her head and felt a certain kind of relief that she had said everything that she wanted to say. It wasn’t easy and it never would be. But it was done. She had said her goodbye to Seth and she had also buried that part of her life as well.When Phoebe and Christian came out into the fresh air of the evening she sighed, the burden of the last farewell was off her. The street was quiet, only the wind blowing through the trees in the vicinity could be heard. It was quiet, calm, as if the opposite to the storm that had been brewing in her soul for ages. Christian looked at her and even though his eyes were tender, they were asking questions. “Are you okay?” he whispered. Phoebe stood in silence for a few moments processing his words, before replying to his question. The oppression was still felt but it was not as strong as before and there was calmness that came with it. She had made the right choice, though it took her a long time to know that she was making the right deci
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Letting Go
“I was about to say, I have not said much,” Phoebe finally whispered. “To you, to myself, even to Seth,” there are so many things that I’ve kept hidden, things I did not want to confront. But now after all this I can’t turn a blind eye.” Christian’s face did not change and his eyes were fixed on her face as he nodded for her to go on. He did not hurry her, did not force. He just stood there as he always did, watching her intently waiting for her to be ready. Phoebe gaze to return to the sky, and the stars that sparkled like the dream of a better tomorrow. “I’ve been trying to cling to the past for so long,” she whispered, “I was trying to mend a broken relationship, I thought that if I give enough love to Seth, if I am patient enough things will change for the better but they didn’t. ” Christian moved a little and her eyes followed him again. “Well, now?” he said quietly, his tone filled with concern. “Now that you’ve let go, what do you want, Phoebe?” The question seemed to weigh
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My Regrets
The words that he said made Phoebe feel the warmth in her chest. This was different – so different from what she had been through with Seth. It was not pressurized, it was not hurried. Just understanding. Just kindness. “I am not asking you to wait for a lifetime,” she said with a small smile on her lips. “I just require time to recover, time to come to terms with everything. ” Christian nodded. “I’ll be here,” he said just like that. “Whenever you’re ready. ” They just stared at each other for a while and the night breeze was chilly as it embraced them. For the first time in years, Phoebe felt lighter, freer than she had in years. For the first time in a long time she felt empowered and that she was the master of her own destiny. That was quite scary but at the same time it was quite fun. And so, they kept on walking and as Phoebe did, she understood that she was not only leaving Seth behind but she was walking into the unknown. And for the first time in a long time, that didn’t
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Because You're a Human
You do not need to solve all the problems at the moment,” Sarah said softly. “You are not running from one man to another. You are healing. And healing takes time. Seth was a big part of your life, and it is normal to feel some sort of feelings and regrets. But that does not make you a failure and does not mean that you cannot move forward.” Phoebe lowered her gaze towards her hands and she was overwhelmed with guilt and confusion. “But Christian deserves more than someone who has not moved on, right? He deserves a woman who can offer him herself, not a woman who is still nursing a broken heart.” Sarah let out a breath and put her hand on Phoebe’s shoulder. “Christian understands what you have been through Phoebe, he doesn’t want you to erase all that and dive into a new relationship immediately, he just wants to support you in any way that you need him right now.” Slower and slower Phoebe nodded, her heart aching but her head a little less fuzzy. “I suppose I have always feared th
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It's not Going to be Easy
Phoebe looked at Sarah, trying to understand what she just said to her. It was true. The woman who once fell in love with Seth, who tried her best to save their marriage, who once dreamt of a future together with him, seemed so distant now. She had turned into a completely different person, a woman who is not yet sure of what she wants in life.“And Christian?” Phoebe questioned as her mind wandered towards him. ”So what role does he play in all of this?” Sarah smiled gently and her face lit up. “Christian is a man who cares for you. He has been patient, kind, and understanding when you were still lost. He is allowing you time to heal but at the same time, he is telling you that he is waiting for you whenever you are ready.” Phoebe bit her lip, her thoughts are still with Christian. He had been nothing but supportive but her heart was divided between Seth and Christian and the new possibility that came with him. She understood that Christian needed more than half of her heart, but s
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Why Being Jealous?
It’s because you are human and you have the freedom to make good and bad decisions. But don’t be overwhelmed by the fear of the unknown or the burden of the past. It is one of the things that make you powerful.” After a slow nod, Phoebe tried to absorb what Sarah said.Phoebe gasped for air when she realized the implication of what Sarah was saying. She had been a prisoner of her own thoughts regarding the wrong decision and now she realized that there would be no right decision. Life was complex, chaotic and full of the unknown. But Sarah was right. The only real error would be to let herself stagnate, to be afraid to take that leap, to do something different, to be confident in herself.Phoebe sank back into the couch, her limbs growing even more leaden than they had been before, as if the burden of the decision she had yet to make was weighing her down. She looked out the window, at the orange, warm light of the evening that painted the world in peaceful color so unlike the storm t
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What is Holding You Back
However, even with all that Emma did for him, with all her tenderness and love, he still thought of Phoebe. He blew out air, and with a negative nod, he responded. He had to stop torturing himself like this. Phoebe had her decision to make and he had to let go of that and accept what she had chosen. Seth took his phone and went through the contact list and clicked on Emma. His thumb was placed over the call button. He should call her, he thought. He should go over to her place, spend the evening with her. She would listen, make him understand that things were going to be fine. But his hand came down and the phone fell back on the table.*No,* he thought bitterly. I don’t want to talk about it. I don’t want to feel anything right now.*With a heavy breath he rose from the chair, picked up his jacket and threw it carelessly over his back. There was only one way to shut out his thoughts tonight. He needed a drink.The bar Seth entered was poorly lit, people were engaged in low conversat
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It's Time
Seth leaned on the bar, how the statement made by her weighed on her. He realized the truth was more painful than the whiskey. He had been attempting to suppress the fact that even though Emma was trying to fix him, she was never what he desired. She was a bandage on an open sore that could never be healed.He massaged his temples, the pain of his ideas blending with the ethanol. Instead, Seth commented: “She doesn’t deserve that”. "She deserves better."The woman beside him paused for some time to allow him to fully comprehend what he had said. “Then perhaps,” she whispered, “it is time to let go of what is no longer yours.” You are so attached to something that happened in the past that you are causing harm to everyone around you including yourself.Seth leaned back in his chair and closed his eyes, a heavy breath escaping him. He knew she was right. He had been holding on to the memory of Phoebe, to a life they used to have, although that life was no longer a reality. Although in h
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The Lady
Don’t forget that occasionally, letting go is the best strategy to make some room for what’s better ahead.”Seth sipped his whiskey, although the taste was lost. It felt lifeless, just as the emptiness inside him felt.The buzz from his phone in his pocket broke the haze in his brain. He took it out, taking a quick glance at the screen. It was Emma.He looked at her name and felt the effects of his conscience. For what length of time could he keep up the charade? How much time would he be able to maintain her interest when his heart was staying committed to the past? He kept asking himself lots of unanswered questions.Seth let out a heavy breath. “Can we see?”In that moment of excitement, his stomach churned with both feelings of dread and relief as he pressed the send button. He had ambiguous thoughts about what the future might indicate, yet he understood that he couldn’t sustain his current way of life.Seth left the bar, placing some bills on the counter and then launched himsel
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"I Loved You"
"You deserve someone who can give you their whole heart, and I… I can't do that right now." Emma said nothing and Seth could feel the effect of his words hit her hard. He prepared for the pain he knew he was going to feel, the let down he had been trying to prevent for so long.‘You know,’ Emma whispered at last, her voice trembling, ‘I always thought that one day I would have to run from you.’ I knew you weren't over her. I just hoped... I could be the one to change that.Seth’s chest became constricted, the guilt washing over him. "I'm sorry, Emma. This isn't about you. You are so much more than what I can offer you. I thought I could just get over it, but…“But you can’t,” she repeated the words for him, her tone rancid. “Because you’re still in love with Phoebe.”Seth’s throat tightened as he forced the food down his throat. It may not be love and it may just be the memory that I have clung to for so long but either way it is not right for you. And I can not continue to pretend t
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