From a very young age, I had always known …
"Teacher, Damien is being weird again!""W-What did I do? I just…""Shut up, Damien! How many times have I told you…"As a child, I had discovered, or rather… The truth had become glaringly clear to me, forced down my throat until it was one thing that remained constant throughout my life… The world was unfair!Some were born with good looks, charms, flair, and natural interactive skills.Some had money and were born into rich families, they become highly influential in their environment.In such a world, all you needed was luck, something outside your control. If you were born ugly, poor, and introverted… There was nothing you could do about it."Damien's weird…""He keeps talking to himself in such a weird way""He doesn't have any friends…""Just look at how miserable he looks, what could he have done in his past life to earn such a face?"I grew up hearing those words from everyone around me. I always wondered to myself whether I was cursed, whether my being born was an aberration, a stain in reality.My mother died giving birth to me. As for my father, he never cared much for kids. I even heard rumors that he beat my mother a lot while she was still alive. After she died, he needed a place to vent his rage and frustration, so he turned to me.Domestic violence and child abuse did not even come close to describing what he put me through. I thought about retaliation many times, but after looking at his huge physique and my tiny, feeble frame, I realized that I would never stand a chance."Should I just end it…?"I asked myself this question many times, but… I just couldn't do it. Killing myself would bring me relief, freeing me from the agony I endured on a daily basis, yet I would never find it within me to take my life.Was I scared of dying? Yes!But there was one other reason I refused to end my existence."One day… Someday, they'll have what's coming to them… And I want to see it when that happens!"The idea of revenge kept me going. I thought if I endured hard enough then someday, karma would finally turn in my favor.It never did.And so 16 years of my miserable life passed. Fortunately, my father was not entirely useless. He still left money for my upkeep, though he always lorded over me for this."Useless punk! You still trouble your old man for money at this age?! When I was your age, I had already started earning my bucks. Tch, spoilt and entitled kid!" He would always say.Still, he would leave me funds. Perhaps he considered it as hush money, for me to keep quiet about his constant abuse of me.I used the money I got to take care of myself, treating the several wounds and burn marks I had. I never considered reporting him anyway. In this world, I had learnt that there was no one one could trust, no one but yourself."I'm just pathetic, aren't I?"Yes, I hate the world… But I also despised myself for being so weak and powerless against the rushing tides of unfairness in this harsh reality.The House was hell!The School was hell!Everywhere… Was Hell!My room remained the only place of safety for me, surrounded by the comforting silence and dark embrace of security. Before I knew it, I had become entirely withdrawn and reclusive. I had no ties or interaction with the world, nor anyone in it."Novels. Manga. Anime. Games. Sleep. Food." Those were the only things I needed… Those were the only things that mattered to me.The world of fiction and fantasy, where I could dream of my father and several others who wronged me as dead. I could freely fantasize about having my revenge on them several times, using various methods.I could finally hit the girls who humiliated me publicly, defeating the boys as they begged for mercy while I drowned in the pleasure of their screams and the squishing sounds of my fist hitting against their cheeks.The vivid picture melted in my brain as I held on to my dark fantasies to soothe the gnawing pangs of loneliness and hate that swirled within me constantly."Hey, Damien is looking at Melissa weirdly again! What a pervert, lol""Who knows what's going on in his twisted head anyways""Only the devil, lol. I'm sure they're best friends!"The consistent insults of my peers always rang in my head. And when I reported to the teachers, naïve to the ways of the world… They proved to me once again that it was meaningless to fight against the cruel fate I had been born with."Uh? Were you really looking at her in that way?" The Teacher said.Was that what was actually important, at that moment?"They must just be teasing you. Stop taking things too seriously, Damien… That's why you don't have any friends" Another one interjectedNo, that wasn't the reason why…"You should really try talking to them some more… They can't be as bad as you say they are!"But, they were…"I understand you, Damien… You must be really lonely, right? You want a friend, don't you? We all need someone to share our time with, but I don't see you with anyone"That wasn't what I needed… They didn't understand…Condescending words from everyone flooded my brain, talking like they could relate to an oddity like myself. However, it was all the same, even with them too."That Damien kid is such a handful""Yeah, why did I have to be the homeroom teacher of such a problem child… Sigh, I hope he doesn't cause me too much trouble…""You need to make him behave!"Passing through the Teacher's lounge and hearing them say these words took away what little respect I had for them, the ones who are meant to be the guides for children… had clearly given up on me.But that wasn't all…"Oi, I heard you were staring at my girl this afternoon, Stark!"The School top dog, and my nemesis, Daniel, looked at me with a menacing glare."N-N-No… I-I… I wasn't…" I stuttered to say my piece to the overwhelming presence before me."Shut it, pipsqueak!" Adam said, using the back of his hand to slap me, sending my frail body crashing to the ground.He cracked his knuckles and approached me."It seems you don't know your place… Even going to report her friends to the teachers… You're dead meat, Stark. Your life ends here!"As he battered me with blows from his tough fists, coupled with kicks from his friends, I groaned and grunted in pain, screaming for help desperately. However, my cries were in vain.No one cared to help… Especially when it was poor, ugly, and weird Damien Stark.My voice slowly turned hoarse and fell silent altogether. As the bangs and pounds kept sending my body through pain, I suddenly wondered how they got to know about my report… And what the teachers said to me concerning friends.These people couldn't be my friends… No one could… I was nothing more than garbage to everyone!"It hurts… It hurts so much…" My brain rang out.The pain became too overbearing for me that I quickly withdrew into my room. In my mind, I created my haven, hiding under my blanket in the dark expanse of warmth and safety.I closed my eyes and fantasized about how it would feel if I could return just a tiny fraction of the pain inflicted on me to the ones who stood over me and battered me with bruises.If I could return this pain I received if I could watch them writhe in agony and scream their lungs out in desperation and pain… Ah, how good that would feel…Taking pleasure in this, I fell unconscious.Adam did as he promised. He ended my school life after that moment. Making a public spectacle of me, he made sure everyone treated me like trash, even worse than filth.I was subjected to bullying from everyone, irrespective of age, or grade.No one was beneath me, I was the least in the school, as a student, and as a human.Bread shuttle, Toilet cleaner, punching bag, errand boy, Homework writer, human stool… You name it!Finally, something within me broke.And I finally accepted things for what they were… For that was my fate."It won't hurt as much if I just stop fighting against it… This is me…"Or would it?!I refuse to accept it… I refuse everything! I waited for a chance to become strong, and finally, the opportunity was here! The Apocalypse was here, and with it, everyone had gotten a head start from me already!But, I wasn't going to give up!I wouldn't die here!I'd survive no matter what it took… that's what I'd always done. That wouldn't change now!"So get up, Damien! Get up and fight!"[System Alert]<... Please Select Your Job>"This world sucks… Everything sucks!" I muttered to myself as I grunted on my bed. I turned slightly, placing my head on my comfy pillow as I wrapped my entire body with the thick duvet which seemed to be twice my size. Covered in a blue overall, with star designs all over the pajamas I wore, I yawned and smacked my lips. Suddenly a loud ringing noise, followed by stereos of music and the jingles of a melody invaded the silent, dark room. I cringed in discomfort. "Urgh! Shit, not again!" I groaned as I tightened my face in disgust and frustration. I had shut everywhere, covered all the blinds, and even covered myself in my favorite duvet, yet the noise of celebration still managed to reach me. Glancing over at the wall, I saw a large calendar hung there, in a sorry state with several tears and marks all over. It had several strikes on it, showing the days that had passed. And the dates that were left without any marks were the days I was yet to live through. My eyes caught the nu
"Ah, let's check what's going on on Earth now…" I said, as I casually walked towards a large screen a short distance from me. I turned to my side and saw the shiny being who claimed to be 'God', and whom I now realized was technically my roommate. The luminous person folded his hands and just kept looking at me as I walked nonchalantly toward the large screen which resembled a television. "Good morning, or… Whatever time it is now…" I waved, noticing the gaze of God on me. Time didn't pass in the 'Sacred Hall', as God called it, so I had no idea what time or date it was. It had been a while since I had gotten mysteriously teleported into this mysterious space, and I was now feeling at home in the massive white hall. Wearing a new set of pajamas and socks, different from the last one, I cracked my neck and smacked my lips as I slowly moved forward while yawning. Finally getting to the front of the golden screen, I raised my hands and tapped it gently, still using my other hand to
"I had decided to monitor you closely due to your anomaly. Plus, with the attitude and terrible luck you have, receiving this 'Gift' changes nothing for you, and you would be dead as soon as you entered into your world again."I silently listened to God's words, and while they were informative, they were very harsh."You see, Damien, everyone else had selected the best gifts. I planned on making you wait here for a while longer, so you can become entirely saturated with this place, but I can't stand you anymore!" God declared.I bit my lips as they quivered and released my tensed-up body. What was I thinking? That I could just hang out and chill with God for the rest of eternity? Of course not. Even if I had any chance, I ruined it by being my usual trashy self-pity."I really am a useless piece of shit, aren't I?" I chuckled to myself sadly, drowning in self-pity."Will you stop that! You dare to call yourself that in my presence?!" God asked in an annoyed tone.Realizing I was in th
I opened my eyes and found myself in a familiar space. It was dark, warm, and quiet… It was a place that always calmed me down no matter what happened. A small ray of sunlight pierced the room, passing through the small space caused by the demarcations in the curtains which covered my window. "It's morning already," I said tiredly. I gave a short sigh and glanced around me. It took a while before my eyes adjusted to the darkness, but once they did I was able to see things a little more clearly. My wall clock hung on the wall, along with my calendars and the other accessories I had, which were mostly based on my favorite anime characters. My mind wondered for a moment, disoriented about many things, most especially the short, yet seemingly lasting dream I had. "If felt so vivid though…" I muttered. Deciding that I have gotten enough sleep, I stretched my body and yawned heavily. "Should be the 26th now. Would you look at that, I slept throughout Christmas, after all." With no
Okay, first things first, I need to know exactly what my aids are.It's been 30 days since the 'Miracle' happened. Today is the 24th of January... Looks like I missed the New Year celebration as well... Yayy...I was in the Sacred Hall for quite some time, and even though we didn't spend much time talking to each other, I knew quite a few things about that God guy.Knowing the geezer, there was no way he would say something if he didn't mean it."Since he brought me to this world and gave me advice, it must mean that I have a chance at surviving... and I'm definitely taking it!"Currently, I possess the Divine System, a window that contains information about myself.The world is now like a game, and I'm a player. Just like in RPGs and fantasy events, I have access to a special panel that displays my current status and abilities.Every Gifted in this world possesses this System, and along with it comes the power to 'Level Up' and increase one's overall abilities.Other than that, there
In the profound silence of the celestial palace, the resonant voice of God echoed, "It's about time he left." The gravitas of his words filled the divine expanse, each syllable reverberating in the still air.Ensconced on his monumental throne, his eyes were drawn to a large golden screen suspended before him. This screen was no ordinary construct, but an extraordinary device reflecting a vast multitude of events unfurling across his divine dominion. His gaze swept over the flickering images, taking in the realities of the mortal world below.Observing the unfolding circumstances, his voice rang out, "Would you just look at this... What a mess!" His utterance carried an amalgam of surprise, disappointment, and a poignant frustration.The spectacle of the world beneath was enough to stir even the most composed deity. Witnessing the callous disregard for life by humans, the ease with which demonic entities invaded and overran once majestic cities, a sense of profound irritation welled
It had been six days since I returned to this world, and 36 days since this madness began... My body still trembled at the thought of leaving this haven I had made for myself, but I refused to allow the fear within to shake my resolve. "Urgh… I stink…" I gagged, after taking a whiff of my odor. Being so preoccupied with learning as much as I could, I spent little time doing anything else. Other than eating and sleeping, my undivided attention was dedicated to learning as much as I could about the System and formulating strategies while preparing for the inevitable time I would leave. After six days of such an unhygienic lifestyle, I needed an intense bath. I brushed my teeth as hard as I could, making sure I got everything right since I would not be doing anything like it in a while. Also, using the water that was left in my bath, after putting enough in my [Subspace] I had a thorough shower. Now feeling refreshed and full of vigor, I picked the clothes I had decided to wear, af
My body quivered, trembling with an unfamiliar sensation, a disconcerting numbness spreading through my limbs like a silent, creeping storm. It was a moment that hung in the balance, teetering between survival and demise, an instant that would decide if I could find my place in this world, or be discarded like obsolete flotsam in the face of an era that was alien and daunting in its savagery."As a rational person, should I fail to kill a Demon during our first encounter, what hope could I possibly harbor to explore the chaotic world that lies in wait beyond these walls?" This grim realization sank like an anchor in the sea of my thoughts.With an unwavering grip, I clutched the sharpened metal rod that was my only line of defense, a pitiful shield against the brutal realities of my existence. With measured movements, I tilted the rod, aligning its razor-sharp edge towards the direction of the ascending staircase."Skraakiiiikk!" The eerie sound resonated in the cavernous silence, the