When dawn came, I woke up and I headed outside. It was so hard witnessing what I saw, on the previous night. Everything was playing back to me in a blur, like I had been in a horrendous dream and non of things I saw had happened. But they did and I also knew that they did. I went outside to watched the sun rise.
I did not know what to do? My heart still ached from hearing my own brothers conspiring to hurt me."You woke up early this morning. Did you get a good sleep?" Father asked."Yea- I mean, uhm yes father!" I said, my throat was a bit croaked from my deep slumber, "Can I go with you to work today?" I asked. He looked at me, but he seemed a bit hesitant to answer."Clearance, kids are not allowed to go to work, but do not worry, today is my day off. So we can go to the town instead, you will help me pick some groceries. What do you say?" He asked and I nodded my head feeling a little bit of relief. I was going to be away from the juvenile siblings of mine.I didn't want to spend anymore time with any of them, they showed me enough about who they were. I did not want to learn any longer. If they wanted to play their horrendous games? I might as well just tell father about them, but I did not know where to start.My heart broke more for Ganuku. How could a human being endure so much pain and suffering? Didn't they have any remorse? It was hard to believe."Okay, go ahead and bathe, we'll leave soon." I nodded my head and went ahead and went ahead.In our home we did not have a bathroom, so we used old big bowls to bath ourselves. I was still small, so I was normally was bathed by Abraham, on various occasions. But I did not want to bother him today. So, father helped me with pouring my bathing water, he mixed hot water with cold water in a bowl, to make a combination of warm water. He also gave me a bath soap and a face cloth to bath with.When he was done, he then poured himself the same combination of solution and he sprinkled what seemed like herbs in his bowl. He went to his own room, leaving me in the kitchen. That's where I took most of my baths.After bathing I went back to the room I shared with my brothers, to pick up my own clothes and I discovered that some of them were awake. I ignored them as I took my clothes from our shared wardrobe and I picked the clothes that were for special occasions. My small takkies, cargo pants and a nice t-shirt. I moisturized my skin with a Vaseline that we all shared, before I wore my my clothes?"Since when did you bath yourself?" Samson asked me.I kept quiet and didn't say anything."We'll just tell dad." Simon said, but I wasn't bugging. I left that room without saying a word. I was a little frighten by them. These people were instigating my death and they were talked to me so casually like they weren't conspiring at all.Simon hurried out of our room and he rushed into father's room. He got in without knocking."Simon are you out of your mind, why didn't you knock?!" Father scolded."Sorry dad, I just came to tell you that Clearance just bathed himself, he even picked up his clothes without asking." He reported."Simon, I know. Get out now, this very instant, don't you see I'm bathing? You don't look at your parent's nakedness!" He told him."Okay, sorry father." Simon left the room. When he saw me, a scowl formed on his face. I guess Ezra's genes wasn't doing him any justice. He looked hideous with his unwashed face, although he had a fair skin, he still looked ugly."What are you smiling at?! " He asked me with aggravation. I kept silent and did not speak."Simon leave your brother alone, go wash the dishes!" Father instructed, from inside of his bedroom. I couldn't hold my breath anymore I snickered at his demise. Simon might have been a smart mouth, but his cunning ways were limited. Dad could always put an end to his foolishness.I took that as my cue to go and pour away the water I was bathing with away. He tackled me through my neck and he put me on a head lock, before I could even pour the water away. "What were you laughing at huh, do I seem like a joke to you?" He asked."Simon leave me alone, before I pour this water onto you!" I said agitated with him. Simon didn't budge, he kept his arms tight around my neck, the bowl fell down causing both of us to get wet and also the bowl to break."Leave me alone Simon!!!" I shouted.Dad came rushing out with his sjambok. He gave Simon three lashes before Simon ran away, leaving me to fall on the wet ground. I was so annoyed and angry at the same time. Simon ran into the neighbor's home. Our father chased him for a while and then he got back, "Stand up Clearance, your brother is a fool. When he gets back he will fix this bowel or I will break him. Come let's go clean you up?" father instructed. I did as I was told.He led me into his room and he got me another rug and then he cleaned me properly . When I was clean, he instructed me wear another pair of pants and a t-shirt, and leave the other ones to dry."Leave these clothes here, go find another one. We will leave soon. I will make us breakfast before we leave." father said. It was strange and rare to have that bonding moment with him. It just felt like a moment I was going to cherish forever."Nazim needs a baby's hand." A lady was saying to the man she was sitting with, in the bus. For me, what she was saying was not the strangest thing at all, but it was the fact that I could hear her. We were sitting inside the bus that was going to town with my father. As I was sitting there, I felt my soul shift from the real world to the spirit world. I had never experienced anything like that. It felt like how I felt, when my I felt myself traveling through space in time, to witness a situation that had happened years ago. The only difference was that Ganuku was not there to guide or to assist me.I was also sitting inside the bus traveling to town and I was sitting besides father. We were sitting 10 rows away from the couple that was conspiring to make an abduction. From where I was sitting, I already knew that Nazim was not a human being, but instead it was a god of darkness, those people just gave him a human name just so they throw anyone who was choosing to eaves drop off thei
We were walking on an island, in-between the shelves of Spar, a shopping center. I was still dirstubed from what I had seen on that bus. Father had placed me inside the trolley and he was driving it, he picked up some different items on the shelves and he placed them around me. I had refrained to talk to him since he scolded me on the bus. I thought that he was still upset with what I had said because he was quiet too. I thought that it was strange and ironic that my brothers felt that I was his favorite child, whereas I felt that it was all out of convenience. If he really loved me more than them, why did I still have to be the only one with a different surname? It was was on my brain and it saddened me. I saw some people approaching us, they distracted me from thinking because they seemed to know us or my father. "Mr Janas Sithole, son of God, it has been a long time and we missed you so much in church. How have you been?" One lady asked. It became clear that they knew him, but th
I was home, when I saw the silhouette of Ganuku reappearing. He was staring away into Rockville. It was like he was watching or witnessing the most interesting event of his life time there. It was a surreal experience witnessing him just standing there and it was during day time. Me and father came home not speaking to each other, even when he bought me ice-cream, he refused to look at me. It got me wondering that if I had told him these few things and he got so offended, how worse was it gonna be if I had told him about Ganuku? When we came back he did not even address Simon's lackluster behavior that morning, he just went to his bedroom and closed his door, informing Abraham to not bring him any food.I went inside the house after a while and I saw my weird siblings again. They looked suspicious, like they had been conspiring against me again. I avoided them and did not say anything. "What did you and father talk about, when you were away in town with him?" Simon, the bold guy aske
After few weeks, the animosity between my siblings and I seemed to have died down, but the tension was still there. We just pretended to ignore it. My father, also, had neglected to talk to me. Ever since our little trip, to town. Besides him being at work, he was arriving late at night, especially when he thought we were all asleep. He didn't know that my spirit was lurking there watching with Ganuku who was teaching me everyone's secrets. The worst feeling was feeling neglected by my own parent. He could not even address the issues at hand, but he had been coming at home drunk all the time. He even ate his dinner in the morning, around 12:00am. My brothers were sure that he was attempting to destroy them, he was planning for their slow death, but the reality was far from that. Since he drowned himself in the bottle. I wished I didn't feel so sad about it, but my heart was breaking. Ganuku saw my reaction and he asked me what my issues were?"You always seem so sad when you look at
We traveled back home, when we got there I saw my body was moved. I was placed in the kitchen on Ganuku's sponge. It was weird. I was on the same sleeping position I was in from when I left my body. I panicked, they probably thought that I was dead or they were playing a prank on me. Were they trying to murder me? All these thoughts came crashing into my head, from that one gesture."Do they know? Do they know, that I had left?" I asked Ganuku."Yes, but we have to act quickly, before they tell your father... Get inside your body, we're doing this thing today." Ganuku stated. I did not know what he was really suggesting, but I complied to his demands. I got inside my body. He grabbed me with the shirt and he made us open the door. It was dark outside and I felt the breeze of the cold night hit my skin, like a deep freezer. I was really scared of leaving with my body in a human form.He made us walk until we reached the gate and then we walked towards the road."We have to act swiftly.
"Wake up, wake up!?!" I was father's voice. I looked up at him, I was back on the kitchen floor on Ganuku's blankets and sponge. I really did not know how I got back home, but from the horrific stare my father was giving me, I knew something was wrong."Who did this to you?" He asked.I did not pay attention, I was thinking about last night, about how I nearly died. So many things had happened yesterday. Me and Ganuku's had traveled to Evalon graveyard, we performed a ritual. Something had happened to me last night because I only remembered collapsing inside his grave, although it was weird, almost like witchcraft. My soul felt like it was traveling again, but it also felt like I was reborn. Ganuku had made me chant about giving him access to my temple, I did not know what that was about, but he was able to enter my vessel. His soul was now mysteriously living in my body, with me and I could feel its presence. It felt like I could feel him and he could take over. His soul felt stran
"Why did you lie on us and where did you find the blood that you had poured on yourself?" Samson asked."I always used to protect you, but the stunt you pulled on us is mean and unacceptable. From now on I will let Simon do whatever he wants to do with you!" Abraham added."Well first of all, both of must be sick in your head if you think there is any help I need from you. Go to aunt Rosina and learn some morals!" I told them not holding back my rage. In that moment I was thinking of the events that had happened when I was still alive, living in my own body."You do not sound like a real innocent Clearance that we know, you sound like crook from hell. That's why that blood was all over you? You are reeked off evil, I can smell it on you." Samson added."Well at least you can just smell it, you performed it. Now you need to learn your morals. Maybe aunt Rosina will teach you a thing or two about them." I said. These were my greatest bullies from the time I was still alive and reliving t
Ganuku P.O.V. :"Okay." Clearance said with understanding. I knew I could count on him when it mattered the most. "Can I enter my body now, just in case father gets back?" He asked looking at me. I nodded, although I did not feel like that was a wisest idea. ~When father came back from his mini vacation of air, I could not help but think that I needed to also get rid of him, if I had to accomplish all of my missions. My brothers were now out. It was then time to make my guilt and shame his potion for putting me through that struggle of being humiliated and the neglected. I had endured so much from him. I had not forgotten about how he let me experience the wrath of his late vengeful wife and I knew that she sometimes visited my other brothers and him, from time to time.I needed to occupy his dream with nightmares, he would think that he was being haunted."What are you planning now?" He asked as he entered the room, that all his sons used to sleep in, including Clearance. I did not
Ganuku:I arrived safely on the surface of the river, and then I saw Sosobala on the embarkment of the river. He stood facing south, to the direction I needed to take when I walked back home. I was not scared of him, but I knew I needed to be careful with him. "What are you?" He questioned. "I saw you enter this river few hours ago and you stayed down there for a very long time." He inquired begrudgingly. "I'm the soul of your nephew. Remember Ganuku? That's me." I answered him, honestly. "I am no longer a human anymore, I am a spirit that serves a snake of New Rockville. Do not patronize me with that human title and the body you possess… That's your younger brother's body, what did you do to him?" He urged, facing me. His huge form blocked my pathway. I felt trapped. Whatever I did, he could eventually find me even if I ran, he knew exactly where my family lived. It felt hopeless lying to him. "He is right here." I showed him the ball that I was carrying. "You're introducing hi
Clearance:I woke up in a idiosyncratic place. It looked weird, everything was shadowy and I heard whispers. Ganuku had apologized to me, but I knew that things were getting exacerbated, especially with father. When I heard the tumultuous noise he had with Ganuku, I nearly died from terror! My heart was filled with so much fear. I had never seen father so upset with me, I did not even think I was going to survive his wrath. My brother was not frightened though, he might have been feminine and had a liking of girly things, but fear did not recite in him. I heard voices between him and a strange lady, I was not familiar with her, I had never seen or heard of her anywhere. I was agog. "Why did you bring a living person here?! This is no place for him! You know what the Pharos will do when they find him here, right?! They will use him as their next sacrifice! Why did you risk him coming here?!" She posed questions, agitated. "Do you seriously think I had any choice in this situation?
Ganuku P.O.V. :"You know we are going to start beating you up after we are finished eating here, right? We do not tolerate gay boys here." One boy said."After doing that poisonous thing in front of my face, what makes you think I might spare you?" I asked them and they all looked at me as if I was a crazy person."We will beat you up, even God does not like things like you?!" The other one said clicking his tongue."Which God are you referring to?" I asked."This boy is sick, you should be running before we start hitting you!" The second boy said laughing. It seemed like being bullies seemed like the most common thing that they glorified. Another act that created so much rage inside of me."If you are referring to the god of the colonists, the food you are eating will turn into termites and it will start eating you from within." I stated. It seemed like what I had said had no effects on them and they started approaching."We are referring to the one true God of the Bible." Another s
"I am becoming more of myself." I told him with a smirk. I knew it was his worst nightmare witnessing any of his boys acting suspect. He was high on sexual morals and gender roles. Like if you could not conform to his moral standards? You would have gotten disowned right then and there. (I hid the bottle Clearance was in, in a sock, as he was still distracted with my appearance.) "Since when?" He asked confused. In a movie where he thought that he was a hero, I was most definitely a villain. And if he thought that he was a villain, I was double that villain. I really wanted to piss him off."Since the day you stopped becoming my father. Yesterday we agreed on your boys going to live at aunt Rosina, now you want me go fetch my bullies and bring them back to this house and then go and live on a shed like some dog? Fine, I might as well take an identity of my late brother, Ganuku. I might as well fight for his justice and since I am someone who is made to live in his shoes." I told him.
Ganuku P.O.V :He might have thought that he had escaped my wrath, but it was far from over. The was so much I was planning. He had to learn a harsh lessons. Everyone had to pay for their wrong doings, that they had created. He was scared to death after seeing me, but I knew I had to do worse. "Why are you doing this to me Ganuku? I am sorry I did not know what to do in those moments when they hurt you. I wish I could go back and change it, but It was out of my control." He tried to explain again, wiping his eyes. After sometime when I did not respond, he opened his eyes. He did not see me anymore, although I was still there, but invisible. He sighed heavily. He covered himself in blankets, hoping that what he just witnessed was not real. I went back to Clearance's room, my heart filled with rage. I was hurt, my own father had abandoned me because he felt my reality was a nightmare to him. He addressed me in a way that I could never get used to. At least when I was alive, on my pre
Ganuku P.O.V. :I could not sleep, I was not a sleeper and I could never sleep. I yearned for my justice. Vivian had been left to rot in jail ever since I had died. She was the only person who came for my defense, stabbing that well deserving mother monster, who had happened to be a mother to her five demonic children. The hurt they had put me through? When I was still alive, it could not be subdued with a slap on the wrist, everyone had to pay for their crimes. I despised and hated each and everyone of them.The one memory that still haunted me the most was the moment when Abraham was instructed to test which of my private organs were working? He inappropriately touched me when I was only a child, on my previous body, when I was still a human being. I cried out to father during those days and fought him from touching me inappropriately. Father came rushing in our bedroom to see what was happening. When I told him that Abraham wanted to molest me. He became so rigid and he blamed me
Ganuku P.O.V. :"Okay." Clearance said with understanding. I knew I could count on him when it mattered the most. "Can I enter my body now, just in case father gets back?" He asked looking at me. I nodded, although I did not feel like that was a wisest idea. ~When father came back from his mini vacation of air, I could not help but think that I needed to also get rid of him, if I had to accomplish all of my missions. My brothers were now out. It was then time to make my guilt and shame his potion for putting me through that struggle of being humiliated and the neglected. I had endured so much from him. I had not forgotten about how he let me experience the wrath of his late vengeful wife and I knew that she sometimes visited my other brothers and him, from time to time.I needed to occupy his dream with nightmares, he would think that he was being haunted."What are you planning now?" He asked as he entered the room, that all his sons used to sleep in, including Clearance. I did not
"Why did you lie on us and where did you find the blood that you had poured on yourself?" Samson asked."I always used to protect you, but the stunt you pulled on us is mean and unacceptable. From now on I will let Simon do whatever he wants to do with you!" Abraham added."Well first of all, both of must be sick in your head if you think there is any help I need from you. Go to aunt Rosina and learn some morals!" I told them not holding back my rage. In that moment I was thinking of the events that had happened when I was still alive, living in my own body."You do not sound like a real innocent Clearance that we know, you sound like crook from hell. That's why that blood was all over you? You are reeked off evil, I can smell it on you." Samson added."Well at least you can just smell it, you performed it. Now you need to learn your morals. Maybe aunt Rosina will teach you a thing or two about them." I said. These were my greatest bullies from the time I was still alive and reliving t
"Wake up, wake up!?!" I was father's voice. I looked up at him, I was back on the kitchen floor on Ganuku's blankets and sponge. I really did not know how I got back home, but from the horrific stare my father was giving me, I knew something was wrong."Who did this to you?" He asked.I did not pay attention, I was thinking about last night, about how I nearly died. So many things had happened yesterday. Me and Ganuku's had traveled to Evalon graveyard, we performed a ritual. Something had happened to me last night because I only remembered collapsing inside his grave, although it was weird, almost like witchcraft. My soul felt like it was traveling again, but it also felt like I was reborn. Ganuku had made me chant about giving him access to my temple, I did not know what that was about, but he was able to enter my vessel. His soul was now mysteriously living in my body, with me and I could feel its presence. It felt like I could feel him and he could take over. His soul felt stran