I took a deep breath while looking into the void, I didn't know what I should do, if I would listen to my wishes or if I would keep the promise I made.I can't quite figure out if I should be selfish or if I should pay for all my sins.I don't want to live in a world where there is a heavy sin. Even before I met her, I wanted to disappear.Even before she came into my life, I was always looking for a way to end my life without feeling pain.But when she came, my world changed. I remember what she said before. "If you have a problem, pray, killing yourself is not the solution to all your problems." That's what always sticks in my mind every time I try to commit suicide.One day I tried what she said, I prayed even though I didn't know how. I didn't even know how to do the sign of the cross so I just went straight to telling him what I wanted to say. I asked for forgiveness for the mistakes I made, and I asked for guidance on whether to correct my mistakes.On the day of her father's fun
"Erelah." I turned to the person who called me. Damon. He smiled at me beautifully while holding a small tray filled with medicines."Time to take medicine," Damon said to me so I smiled and nodded in agreement to what he said, he smiled and came to me then handed me a medicine capsule, I smiled and took it from him then he handed me a glass of water, again I took it at him while smiling and not taking off my eyes on him.I showed him how I take the medicine and even opened my mouth to prove that I had taken the medicine he gave me, I couldn't take my eyes off him, I felt like when I took my eyes off him he will be gone forever and it will be a long time before he returns.I don't want to miss him again so I don't even blink."Get some rest Erelah." He said so I immediately shook my head."I don't want to," I said quickly while looking at him."Erelah, you need to rest, go ahead and grow your eyebags." He said that's why I pouted causing him to laugh."I don't want to, you'll leave me
‘Just incoming news, Three human corpses were found inside their house bathed in their blood. Such corpses have engraved the letter ‘D’ on their breasts. According to residents near the crime scene, they did not hear any noise or shouting from the house. Police are now starting to investigate such crimes. ' "As of now, we have a person of interest. We have obtained some details on the bodies of the victims and based on our study, the letter 'D' on the victims' chests is possibly the work of this person." I laughed and turned off the television then stood up in my seat. I started walking towards the kitchen of my house and then looked around. "What can be good to use?" I asked myself then approached the sink where the knives were placed in a drawer. I took a knife and looked at its sharpness. "Dull, I'll feel the pain when I stab it in my chest," I said then returned my hold to the pouch. I looked around the kitchen again and then at a drawer. I immediately went over there and ope
Damon POV "Hey, suicidal kid!" I took out of my mouth the paracetamol, biogesic, neozep, alaxan, and the other medications that I'm about to swallow. I looked up at my caller and saw Gazer approaching me. I sniffed and looked at the medicine I had spit out. "Damn, babies," I said then looked at Gazer who was already next to me. "What's that medicine for?" He asked then looked at me. "Then coke?" He added then laughed. "I don't know what's going into your brain and making you want to commit suicide." He said he then snatched the coke I was holding from me and handed me a glass of wine which he took inside. "I also don't know why it's fashionable for an idiot like you to suddenly show up to disturb me to commit suicide," I said and accepted the wine he offered. "You don't seem to have time to die." He said so I laughed. "Wow, man," I said so he looked at me badly, In fact, we are only the same age but if he acted like he was older than us. I just shook my head and drank the wine he
I lazily fired the grenade I got from the holdapers at the mini stop last night while waiting for Gazer here on the rooftop of a building just opposite the building where the celebration would be held to be led by my target mayor. "Good eve-- Fuck! what is that?!" He immediately kicked me causing me to spit out the grenade I fired. I looked at him badly and then picked up the grenade that fell on the floor. "What are you? Why are you trying that? You're being crazy." It was like Gazer is my father to me that had just arrived. "I'm just tasting what the taste is," I said so he kicked me again."It says in the suicidal book I read, I will feel more and more pain when a grenade explodes,n me," I said then very scratchy. "You're crazy that you a man." Shaking he said then looked at the building in front of the building we were standing on. "Are you going to shoot the mayor from here?" He asked. I shook so he looked at me. "You'll shoot him when my plan breaks down," I said so I wrin
I silently closed my eyes as I hung upside down here in my bedroom. I looked at the clock and saw that half an hour had passed but I was still not dying. I frowned and suddenly looked at the door of my room when someone entered from there. "What are you doing?!" Gazer asked in shock as I called and headed here. "Suicide," I answered while looking at him upside down. I saw his forehead wrinkle and then he grabbed a knife from his pocket to cut the rope that was wrapped around my leg. "Ouch!" I moaned as I fell to the floor and hit my head first. I looked at Gazer badly who also looked at me badly. "You're crazy." He said then rubbed his senses. I snout then handed me the book entitled 'Guide to kill yourself.' "It says here when I hang myself upside down, all my blood will go to my head and then I will slowly die but I won't feel the pain as long as I just drink--" "Instead of killing yourself, why don't you entertain this woman you brought home first." He said while looking at t
"Damon, what are you doing again?" I stopped mixing the poison I bought and then looked at Gazer who was looking at my hand. "Mixing poison," I answered so he was shocked and wrinkled when he approached me then grabbed what I was mixing and threw it to the side, my lips parted as I watched the liquid flow from the pouch down to the floor. "Damn, how many hours did I stir it, and then you just threw it away?" I said so he looked at me badly and then threw the pouch to one side. You have no heart Gazer, waste the poison! "Where is Erelah?" He asked so I looked around and noticed that the woman was not there. Maybe go inside? "It's inside, I think," I said then the cigarettes came out. "You think? You're not sure? I'm going to strangle you, Damon, what if the mayor's opponent took that?" He asked so I looked at him. "Our boss is the mayor's opponent, isn't he? Eh, then one of us will take her either, so we can also see her in the hideout." I said so he felt sorry for what I said. "T
Erelah POV "If you are near a nuclear blast, you will die with no pain because the explosion will kill you faster than your brain detects pain." I looked at the man next to me, he was holding the book where he was reading what was written there. I frowned as he closed the book and I could see its title. "Where is the nuclear plant here?" He asked then looked at me, I looked away then signed of the cross. "Please forgive him for what he is thinking." I whispered then re -signed of the cross, I heard his weak laugh cause me to look at him. "You're weird." My lips parted because of what he said, coming from suicidal maniac? I didn't know he ignored me, I just looked at the front where papa's relatives were standing. Gradually I felt pain and sadness as I watched them cry, I close my eyes again as I remember how dad fell as Damon pulled me away from the mob that day. "Why don't you approach your dad?" Damon whispered to me that he was next to me, I looked at him, he was looking at me