Pray
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"Damon, what are you doing again?" I stopped mixing the poison I bought and then looked at Gazer who was looking at my hand.

"Mixing poison," I answered so he was shocked and wrinkled when he approached me then grabbed what I was mixing and threw it to the side, my lips parted as I watched the liquid flow from the pouch down to the floor.

"Damn, how many hours did I stir it, and then you just threw it away?" I said so he looked at me badly and then threw the pouch to one side. You have no heart Gazer, waste the poison!

"Where is Erelah?" He asked so I looked around and noticed that the woman was not there. Maybe go inside?

"It's inside, I think," I said then the cigarettes came out.

"You think? You're not sure? I'm going to strangle you, Damon, what if the mayor's opponent took that?" He asked so I looked at him.

"Our boss is the mayor's opponent, isn't he? Eh, then one of us will take her either, so we can also see her in the hideout." I said so he felt sorry for what I said. "Then that woman doesn't matter, why are you watching over her? It's just a waste of time with her." I said so his lips were even more pitying.

"You're crazy." He said so I looked at him, I lit the cigarettes I was holding. "That's my assignment, isn't it? So she's really important to me because she'll teach us your next assignment." He said so I was pissed.

"The boss hasn't given an assignment yet," I said so he turned around and pulled out a brown envelope from his back. He handed it to me, which I immediately accepted and opened. Inside was a picture of a woman, Erelah, and on the back was a letter attached saying that it was Gazer's assignment.

'Follow and watch this woman, she will be able to show you where Draco's place is

I looked at Gazer. "Who's Draco?" I ask. He shrugged and then snatched the envelope from me and Erelah's picture.

"That's the one you're going to kill." He said that's why I sucked on my cigar and let out its smoke. I looked up at the sky where the sunlight was widespread.

"So we can make our mission easier when Erelah is with us and by our side." He said, I turned to him, he was looking inside the church where I think Erelah had entered.

"Have you ever been in a place like that in your life?" I asked while looking at the church, he fell silent and looked at me.

"Do you think we will be accepted there? People like us have no other destination but hell." He said so I smiled and looked at the big cross inside the church.

"I think heaven is my way," I said then looked at him, he laughed at what I said.

"How did you say that? You're always planning to commit suicide." He said so I threw the butt of my cigarette to the side then stood up straight and crossed my arm.

"Erelah is praying for me," I said so he looked at me as if wondering what I said, slowly pointing to the device worn on my ear where it was connected to Erelah.

I put a small mic on something she wouldn't notice, on her necklace. After that, I said goodbye to buying water even though the truth is that I was going to buy poison, so from long ago before we separated I knew and heard what she was going to say and who she was talking to.

Gazer laughed and shook.

"You're really smart." He says.

"She's done praying, she's going out," I said then got on my motorbike.

"You take care of her, I'll just follow you," I said then put on my helmet.

"Where are you going?" He asked while looking at me.

"In my grave," I said then I started to run my motor, I said goodbye to him that I was leaving, and even before he complained I drove away from him. I made my way to a cemetery where Mother and Father were buried.

A few minutes later when I got there, I immediately parked my motor on the side and bought flowers and candles as I passed a small shop. Again I walked towards the grave of my late parents then smilingly placed the flower on their tombstone and lit the candle I was carrying.

"How are you." I started and then removed the clutter on the side of their tombstone. "Your naughty and rebellious son is in front of you again." I laughed and said then sit on the grass and look at the sky. "I came here just for my trip," I said then laughed at what I said.

"I'm looking for a way to die, then I just want to tell you that, I think my guilt has been reduced somehow," I said then looked at the grave of the two of them. I smiled and then looked at the sky again.

"Wait, how many years has it been since I last visited you? "I asked them then thought." I think I was only 10 years old when I last visited here. "I said then looked at their tombstone.

"I remember the last thing you mentioned about it before you lost your life." Suddenly my aura cooled and I lost my appetite when I remembered those times, I stared at their tombstone for a few minutes before standing up and then smiling.

"I'm leaving, I just stopped here to say, a woman prayed for me," I said and bowed as I remembered what I had heard earlier.

'Papa God, I know this is not the right time to ask because of what is happening in my family. But, my face is already thick. I met a man and his name was Damon, the first time we met he was going to try to commit suicide, I know it's forbidden and it's bad so please, guide him and forgive his sins and remove all of the problems he had, so that he would never think of committing suicide again. '

I laughed when I remembered that thing. That woman didn't know how sinful I was and why I wanted to commit suicide. But that woman, she was the first to fulfill what I said.

"I said just pray for me."

"S-all right, w-what's your name?"

"Damon."

She was the first woman to include my dirty name in her prayer.

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