Traved In The Void

My night with her

Evening turned into night, like shifting a curtain into silence and darkness, the night breeze that I felt made me realize how calm this atmosphere was and then healed my heart and soul for the heavy things that happened today.

Right now, I'm in front of a girl ... which this morning we had made an appointment to meet again in front of this minimarket at 18:00, yes ... I promised Katia. This time Katia's appearance was really relaxed, she only wore training pants and a sweater, then her ponytail hair when wearing a hat, now flowing beautifully when the wind blows on her.

"Yo... good night."

"Good night, too."

"By the way, what things do you carry that many?" I asked while looking at her hand which was carrying a lot of things.

"Ah this ... we discussed this this morning right? It's today's discount eggs and I bought a little more, you can take a box, take it!"

Her hand took a box of eggs, put it in a spare plastic bag and handed it to me.

"Eh... even though I intended to buy it myself."

"It's okay... take it, can you take me on a tour of the area in exchange? It all feels so foreign, since I've just moved in and have a contract here."

"Hmm I see, alright... if you insist I'll take this egg and show you around."

I took the plastic she offered and put it in front of my motorbike, then looked at her face.

"Hmm, what's wrong?" asked Katia, tilting her face.

"Are you all right? Really from what I can see your condition is very bad."

"Ah... it's okay, if I just walk around I think it's still strong, I told you... I haven't slept since yesterday so it's only natural," she said with a face that looked very tired.

"Looks like I can't stop you, then let's go up!"

"Okay!"

She immediately got on my motorbike and held on to my stomach, I was indeed surprised, but I didn't really care about it and immediately pulled the gas pedal of my motorbike to circle this area. The distance between my house and the mini market where Katia works is 150 meters, and yes ... you could say it's pretty close.

I explained places that were important such as laundry, hospitals, accessories stores and others.

As I explained to Katia I slightly turned to her to see how she would respond, and all I saw she just nodded as if trying to understand what I was saying. After finishing explaining the public places in this area I just kept silent.

Then suddenly Katia started a conversation, "Hey Rey, is there a quiet place that can make you forget for a moment the things that are bothering you?"

"You want to go to a place like that?"

"Yes, if there is take me there, please!"

"Okay, but it's right behind my house."

"Yeah, that's better, let's go Rey!"

We continued our journey up the hill without speaking a word. After a while, we saw a light in front of the garden gate, we walked faster and went inside.

"Wow, I didn't think there would be a garden like this on the hill," said Katia with a beaming face.

"Well this is indeed a place for people here to calm down."

"Oh yes?"

"Yes, but this is not the place I meant, here follow me."

I headed for the bushes and paths I used to walk, Katia behind me just followed me and obeyed without asking. After passing this road, we arrived at our destination.

It's dark here and it's also near a cliff, but I can assure you that this is the best place I can show her.

"H-hey Rey, isn't this perfect?"

She said it with eyes like she was hypnotized by something, well… I wouldn't be surprised, because anyone would be surprised when they first come here.

"Yeah, right? This is the best place I can show you."

This darkness is precisely what makes it so beautiful, why? Because the scene in front of me is a stretch of house lights that stretch out and a very beautiful sea of ​​stars flickering up there, ah really ... I will never be bored if I come here. We also advanced near the cliff cliff to see more clearly this scene then sat there.

"Hey Katie!"

"Yeah, what's wrong Rey?"

"Cigarette ?"

"Yes thank you"

I offered him a cigarette, and he took a cigarette. Then, as I took the lighter out of my pocket, I suddenly remembered something.

"Oh shit, I forgot!"

"Hmm?" Katia's face looks confused.

"This is your lighter, sorry I forgot even though we promised, take it!"

"Relax Rey... just give it to me later, please go ahead."

She told me to burn the cigarette first, I nodded and tried to burn it, but there was a problem. I forget that we are currently on a hill, as you know if the wind that blows over the hill is so strong, and it definitely makes the fire from this match go out when I keep turning it on.

"Shit… the flames keep dying in the wind."

"Let me help."

Katia wrapped her arms around the wind that was blowing, I who understood then lit the match, and sure enough... the fire didn't go out even though it looked a little bit blown by the wind. I quickly bent down and pressed my cigarette against the fire and sucked it hard so the flames spread.

After my cigarette burned completely, Katia's hand suddenly pulled my head again to fuse the cigarette with the cigarette in my mouth.

'hey what is he thinking?'

At this moment we were hit by a gust of wind and I realized that the flow of time around me seemed to stop, 'ah damn I feel like I'm trapped in that spider's web again'. Our eyes are now looking at each other, I can see those tired eyes, I want to know what he is thinking now when he does this to me, what is the reason? Did he have a specific purpose? The answer is, I don't know.

After the cigarette caught fire, she let go of his hand then immediately looked at the scene in front of us again, we were silent for a moment.

"You know rey? I did that only to you."

"Why!?"

"When I saw your gaze in the shop this morning, my instincts told me that you were in a lot of trouble and that you kept your distance from people as if you didn't expect anything from them."

I was silent, I wondered what experience she had to be able to string words together and guess things like that.

Katia continued, "Then I can say... 'I feel like I'm looking at myself', that's why when I saw you next to the shop this morning, I felt as if I was drawn to you and then did that reckless thing."

That's how it looked, without even asking her what she was thinking. So that's the reason why I feel comfortable around her, because she and I are going through tough times.

"Is that so... you know? I also somehow feel like we have a lot in common, and when I talk to you, I feel really at ease." I said it while looking up at the stars.

"I'm glad that's how you feel Rey, and I... uh!"

I who was hearing her speak was immediately shocked because she suddenly fell into my lap, I panicked and realized that she had forced herself up to this point, Who wouldn't fall asleep if they had to work two full days.

Even though I panicked but I didn't wake her up, because if I woke her it would be like torturing her, all I did was check her veins and I could feel her pulse was very weak.

"You did your best today."

I said that to Katia who was fast asleep while stroking the hair that fell down her cheeks, without realizing Katia's hand touched mine and then she was delirious.

"Mother...father...don't go!"

She said that in a trembling voice like she wanted to cry, I was shocked to hear her words, 'why did she say that? What happened to you? Did something happen to your family?'

I just kept quiet, trying to calm myself after hearing Katia's words.

Now I think, right now I should take her to my house and make her sleep well there, after all that's the only option. I lifted she on my back, took her bag and immediately left this place while carrying her to my house.

From the parking lot to my house, it's close, about 20 meters and I left my motorbike in the parking lot because I'm now carrying Katia, I can pick up the motorbike later.

"Knock, knock, knock...."

"Father... open the door!"

I knocked on the door and as soon as I saw my father who was lethargic as usual opened the door, his face was a little surprised.

"Rey, who is she?"

"Ah... She's an acquaintance of mine, she finished work and didn't sleep for 2 days, then when I went to the hill with her, she fell asleep because of exhaustion."

I told the truth and explained it briefly, and my father's response was as I expected.

"I see, ok ... take her in and take care of her, I'm busy!" he said and immediately went back inside.

But then he stopped in the middle of the road.

"Rey... when she wakes up, give her warm water, not cold water, remember that!"

He walked back up and into his room, 'so he cares about her huh?' I thought. I went inside and rushed to my room while carrying Katia.

Let me tell you a little about what I went through and what my father went through. Last year when my mother was shopping at the store, she died from being shot by an armed robber, the robber ran away and it seems he shot my mother on purpose because he wanted to distract people so that he could escape freely.

That day ... when my mother's body was brought by the ambulance to my house, my father cried and screamed hysterically, he cried and kept screaming as if he couldn't believe what his wife was going through. When the police explained what happened, I was speechless and angry at the same time. I cried ... tears flowed profusely, but ... my tears were not as hysterical as my father's. I cry while suffering in silence as if in disbelief and wonder 'why my mother?' Aren't there a lot of other people there?' I absolutely curse that robber.

After my mother's funeral, my father never said a word at home, he didn't even eat for 2 days and kept contemplating in his room crying.

Even when I give him food he always yells "get out...don't bother me damn it!" While throwing the food I brought scattered on the floor. I tried to stay calm, cleaned up the food and complied, hoping that things would get better soon.

Then my wish came true. On the third day, there was a woman who was my neighbor came to change my father, she allowed my father to eat and get up again, slowly making him better as usual. I don't know what she did to my father, but I'm really grateful that she's my neighbor, even though I understand ... from his gaze she has a special feeling for my father.

That's a little picture of the past that my father and I experienced, even though my father locked himself in his room a lot, but he actually worked there. He was there working as a graphic designer and I'm really proud of him for that. Why? Because he is still responsible for all the costs of living in this house even though he has experienced the most painful things in his life.

Back when I carried Katia, now I have arrived at my room. I immediately put her to sleep in my bed then gave her a blanket. Soon after I went out to get my motorbike because I left it in the parking lot.

I went out, put my motorbike into the house and didn't forget to immediately heat the hot water in the kitchen and then put it in the thermos. So that when Katia wakes up I can serve her some warm water.

"Hah!"

I exhaled and immediately lay down beside my bed on the carpet. I am now contemplating and thinking about the many things that happened today, starting from my meeting with Katia, my fight with Rein, the sudden attack from Mrs. Rika, Marie who caught me in class, to Katia who fell asleep from exhaustion when she was in the hills with me. When I think about it all, my eyes unknowingly feel heavy and it looks like I will fall asleep, before falling asleep and closing my eyes completely, I hope to fate to give me a sheet of beautiful days for tomorrow, even though I know everything will not go according to what i expected.

< to be continued >