"What are you doing?"
Bai Meili slightly tapped my hand. This woman was Bai Suxin's biological mother. "These pair of mother and daughter will be going to Red District."'Red District?'The two women were crying and begging. Asking for forgiveness, for second chance. Asking Bai Meili to be merciful and pity them.I was moved. My heart tugged at their pitiful state. I want to help them but then, Bai Meili said: "You have to harden your heart dear or else others will see you as a joke. And your words as flowers. Sometimes, you have to remind these people their social status. So that they won't forget.""But it's just a bun."Why punish them for just a piece of bread?"It's a bun today. How about tomorrow? My jade bracelet? My money? My gold? My husband?"I wanted to argue more but Bai Meili won't listen.She ignored the two slaves and immediately ordered our guards to dragged them out of the manor and sent them to Red District."What's wrong with you?"I looked at Jin'er, confused. Her hands were shaking badly and even her eyes were wandering everywhere. She looked so distracted and nervous."Jin'er?"Suddenly, the tea pot slipped from her hand. Next, I gaped at her when she suddenly knelt infront of me."My lady, forgive me. Please, don't send me to Red District."I knelt with her. "Why would I send you there? Why? Do you want to go there?""No! I.. I want to stay with you, my lady."Jin'er explained everything to me. The dark place called Red District is a place for prostitution. The madam there accepts women ranging from age 12 to 50. Sometimes, the masters of some famous manor can send their disobedient slaves to the red district as punishment. And they can even sell them if they want and let their slaves stay there forever. Sometimes, those slaves choose death than stay in that place."I would never do that." I reassured Jin'er."My lady." Her tearstained face looked at me as if I am god."Jin'er, you're my friend. If you want, I can burn your slave contract and let you have your freedom."Shocked, she stammered. "M-my lady."In the end, Jin'er stayed with me. She insisted to stay with me and want to prove her loyalty to me forever. I was touched but then, thinking that someday, I will leave this world behind, my heart also felt sad.Jin'er is like a sister to me.Even though, I can't wait to go back to my world. But leaving Jin'er behind in this cruel place, I am a bit reluctant. It's just so sad. I'm worried about this little girl.Two years ago, when I woke up and transmigrated here, I heard a woman's voice, telling me that I can only go back, if I acted my role well and die at Bai Suxin's death day.The first few months, I rebelled and did crazy things. I was scared. I was desperate. I want to go home. I miss my family. I cried and cried and cried.I was going crazy.I prayed to all the gods to take me back. I don't want to be here. I want my life.'I want my Mom. My real Mom.'"Mom?""Oh dear. My daughter, you're crying again. What is it? Another nightmare?"I blinked and looked at her. Bai Meili held my hand, her worried eyes on me.I unfeelingly retracted my hand. Stunned with my action, the gentle smile on her lips became stiff.'I want my Mom. My real Mom.'"What are you doing here?""I.. I'm worried. Jin'er said, you're having nightmares again."Since that time where Bai Meili sent the two slaves to Red District, I built an invisible barrier between us. Even though, it wasn't her fault but the society itself. It just bothers me that this woman was so gentle and loving to Bai Suxin but so ruthless to others, to slaves.Yes. Bai Suxin was her daughter so it's understandable but remembering how she didn't even blinked when those two slaves begged their life to her, it didn't settle to me well."I'm fine." I turned to the other side, showing my back on her. "I want to sleep. Please, next time don't enter my room without my permission.""Xin'er.. I.."She sighed. "I understand."I heard her footsteps gradually fading. Closing my eyes, my lips quivered. "Mom, I miss you. Mom, I want to go home. Mom."This strange world, these ancient people, their weird system and their unfair society status. It's scary. How it's easy for nobles to kill commoners and sell slaves and treat them worse than pigs.——Three days had passed. Lu Kai finally returned from the palace."Hands and mind to be as one." I mumbled. That was what Master Zheng told me earlier in class.The slightly touch of the string, the guqin made another horrifying sound, as if reflecting my emotional state right now.I grunted. 'I give up. This is hard.'Sighing, I put down the instrument. I walked towards my personal guard and grumbled. "How is he?"There was a moment of silence."The fourth prince is still sick." Lu Kai bowed to me.I frowned. I could remember a particular sad scene in the novel where the male lead got gravely sick and no one was there to care enough for the fourth prince.Clicking my tongue, the corner of my mouth twitched. "Why is he still sick? Did you deliver the medicine? His food?"For the first time, I got worried to the tragic childhood life of the male lead that was created by that horny author.'He's just fifteen!'"Yes, my lady but.." Lu Kai hesitated.My eyes squinted. "I see."I crossed my arms in front of my chest, tapping my foot in the process, a thumb between my teeth. "He's being stubborn. That damn prince."Coincidentally, I was invited again in the palace. Li Cha really admired Bai Suxin. She likes spending time with this fairy-like person. It's unbelievable."Your highness, why don't I visit your fourth brother?""Fourth brother?"I smiled at her. Then Li Cha wickedly laughed."You go find him. But you have to hurry back. Don't let crown prince brother catch you or else, he'll get jealous."I heavily nodded.Lu Kai, Eunuch Xu and Jin'er were with me when we found Li Han in the training ground. He was alone. He looked so pathetic.Li Han was faking everything. Like how his bad posture can be compared to those new hired awkward soldiers. He's really trying so hard to hide his true self.Seriously? He is the male lead but he is not immortal! He just recovered from cold. Why isn't he resting?When Li Han noticed our presence, he paused for a few seconds then he continued swinging his swords. With more power, showing his anger and frustration in every slash of his swords.I walked slowly to
Li Han didn't answer. He only glared at me. His deep eyes telling me to walk away. Even though Li Han was a prince, no one even bothered to help him. The corner of my mouth arched upwards. "What are you waiting? Help the prince."The twins, Lu Kai and Lu Yi, my bodyguards immediately seized Li Han's arm."What are you doing? Let go of me!"The novel stated that Li Han has superior martial arts. Looking at him, pretending to struggle, I just want to smack him.Anyway, as of now, Li Han still need to hide his talent. It wasn't the right time for his protagonist light to shine until a year later."Bai Suxin, I don't need your help. Leave me alone!"People were starting to notice the shameful scene of the fourth prince."The dog prince!""He really is useless. He can't even get away from ordinary bodyguards. Such weakling!""Lady Bai is helping again the fourth prince. She is too soft-hearted."When we reached the Peach Blossom Courtyard, an imperial physician was already there waiting f
"Bai Suxin, why are you so cruel?" He whispered."Li Han!"In the next second, Li Han was thrown into the ground with my white umbrella. Confused, the weak Li Han gritted his teeth and glared at Li Rui. His pale lips tainted with blood as a result of Li Rui's punch."How dare you look at my woman?!"Li Rui was seething. The guards and eunuchs didn't dare to stopped the crown prince. But then Jin'er stepped forward, her voice came out loud, "My lady, you're shivering!"With that, Li Rui halted his approach and stopped caring about Li Han. He quickly went near me. Li Rui shouted to his servants, panicking as he covered me with his thick black cloak and providing me a new umbrella above my head."The fourth prince.." My voice laced with concern. It was a big contrast, so different at the way I talked to Li Han earlier. The mocking tone was gone."Li Rui, please don't punish the fourth prince." This only made Li Rui angrier. "Lady Bai, you..""Please, your highness the crown prince. He'
"I want my Mom. Mom. Mom.""You're not my Mom.""Mom.""Xin'er, it's me. I'm your mother. I'm here.""You're not my Mom. I want my Mom. Mom. Mom, I'm scared."I woke up in dazed. My body felt weak and I'm.. hungry. My stomach grumbled. So.. I really got sick just like how I predicted. Ahg! It wasn't the best feeling.When Jin'er noticed my tiny movement, she dashed to my side. Relief was written on her face nevertheless, she's still asking nonstop about my condition: where do I feel unwell, do I need this or that. She was really a handful.Jin'er passed me the porridge. Still feeling weak from fever, I ate slowly.Minutes later, Bai Meili came. Her motherly actions overwhelmed me."Jin'er, why did you put chicken in here? What's kind of servant are you? You don't even know how to serve your master. Xin'er don't like chicken. She hates them."Jin'er kneeled down and quickly asked for forgiveness. Seeing Jin'er on her knees, banging her head on the floor as she pleaded for her life, it
The day came where the male lead will be send to Tang.As a prince of the empire, even a bullied prince was still a prince. Li Han was given hundreds of soldiers as his guards, providing him protection until he'd safely arrive to his destination .The capital was bustling. The gathered crowd at the side of the streets. Because there's a high chance that the fourth prince won't be coming back, everyone was eager to have one last look at the "bullied dog prince".Of course, as the villainess, I should play my role well.The fourth prince's procession stopped when they saw the prime minister's carriage.I stepped out from the carriage, Li Rui came running to me. "Lady Bai, what are you doing here?" Li Rui was tasked to send his good brother to Tang. "I want to bid the fourth prince goodbye.""That.."Li Rui frowned, seemingly dissatisfied. He looked at me then to the carriage behind him; to that unworthy person inside, to the source of his annoyance. Of course, the inevitable jealousy
"Shi'er, I know Mom is wrong. I should've told you earlier. I just.. don't want you get worried. You're too precious and fragile. You're my youngest that's why you are also stubborn.. just like your Dad."I screamed at the phone, "You don't want me to get worried?! Then from now on, I'm not going to be your daughter!""Shi'er! Liu Shishi!"I stared vacantly at nothing. Remembering my last words to Mom, I couldn't help but feel remorseful. How could I say that to Mom?"My lady!"Jin'er hastily ran to me with her panic-stricken face. I almost stumbled when she yanked me.. far enough from the lake. Then Jin'er proceeded her usual routine, she turned me on my left side, then on my right, inspecting my body for any visible wounds. Back to my world, I was a person that doesn't own many things, nevertheless I studied so hard that I didn't even get a boy during college days and when I reached adulthood, I did my best to achieved everything I have. I was very contented with that simple life.
I quietly sat beside my parents. Five years in this world, five years of being Bai Suxin, I picked up a few things. The Bai's didn't even notice the difference between me and their real daughter. When it comes to calligraphy, music, dance and poetry, my skills were very mediocre just like how Bai Suxin's in the novel.The male lead and the female lead are now finally sitting together. A perfect picture for their fans. I tried not to look at them. I want to lie low for now. Today, Bai Suxin don't have a scene. Because I'm only here to act envious towards the female lead.The emperor, just like a puppet requested/ordered the enemy princess Chu Wanwan to perform a dance in the banquet.My mouth unconsciously gaped open. 'I wish I have my camera.'No wonder, she was famous and known as an extremely gifted dancer of the Chu Empire.Chu Wanwan enticed the crowd with her frivolous seductive gaze and the corner of her lips were slightly lifted, seemingly haughty.Her plum blossom-inspired C
I learned my lesson. I am not allowed to interfere or change anything in the novel.Or else, things will go awry.Five years ago, due to my interference, I insisted Bai Meili to postpone the trip to Yanyi Temple. As a result, it changed her fate and the people around me.Bai Meili was supposed to die that year in a carriage accident on her way to Yanyi Temple. That time, I was reckless. Too simple-minded. Too soft-hearted and thought I have save a life.I didn't know that I traded someone's lives with hers. 'Two innocent lives.'Due to the fact that she didn't die, two weeks later, when Mingle was caught red handed by stealing a bun, Bai Meili ordered Mingle and her mother to be send to Red District causing them to suicide.In the novel, after Bai Meili's death, the cruelty to the slaves in the manor has stopped. The pair of mother and daughter don't need to steal a bun because of hunger. Mingle was supposed to lived, meet and soon marry his true love. Her husband-to-be, a nobleman wa