I remember that morning, one year ago when I started a new day at school, I came to the library and talked to a girl who was reading a book in the corner of the library.At a glance I feel like I understand how she feels, she must have felt empty and lonely at that time. However, I didn't expect that it was because of that girl that I would eventually carve out my own destruction."Aghh it hurts... it hurts... hot... cold!"The pain was gripping in the stomach. Cold and heat also spread throughout my body, but my eyes didn't open because I wasn't fully conscious.After a while, I felt a sense of calm as something cold touched the skin on my forehead.••••I opened my eyes and when I looked around I could see I was already in someone's room.The house is made of wood, I can say this is a simple house that is calming in the middle of the building houses in this small town. The room area is about 3×3m. Then because of the simplicity of this house, the lighting only uses candles, and I

"Thank you Rika, you are a precious person to me!"We hugged each other, but I said something. Mrs. Rika did not answer my gratitude.'Is there a problem?'I raised my head, my crying also seemed to have subsided. Without realizing it, it turned out that from the beginning Anie was near the door. She must have seen it all from the beginning. I could see Anie's shocked face, accompanied by a face depicting guilt and regret."Repeat again!"Breaking my concentration on Anie, Ms. Rika threw a word in a tone that surprised me.For a moment I thought ,' Is this really the Rika I know?'I just realized it. Just now, being carried away, I accidentally called her presumptuous. 'Damn, is she angry because I'm being disrespectful?'"I-I'm sorry Miss Rika, I seem to have been disrespectful to you just now!""Why is it like that? Didn't I tell you to repeat it?"say it with disappointment.My mouth reflexively said that presumptuous sentence in a stammering tone."T-thank you Rika, you are a preci

A bright day for a lonely soul. Maybe that's what I usually feel when I wake up in the morning, before activities. But for some reason today that loneliness seems to fade.The sound of the echo of tap water drops in the kitchen, the orange light of the sun through the glass of the house, the melodious chirping of birds, and a cup of delicious coffee, accompany my morning today.Enjoying my solitude at this time, I remembered the words of Mary that she spoke yesterday. That, all the things I experienced became heavier because of my own fault. Now that I think about it, what exactly do I need to do to cover it up?At University, I majored in international business marketing. Well, I took that major because I used to think my target in this world was money. What a fool, money is not what I want in this world, even the profession is also not a desire from the bottom of my heart, it is an escape from my dream of becoming a teacher.Anxiety, loneliness, and no reason to live. Maria had alre

In my life, all the things I want are always away from life. I told my mom once."Mom... why is it that the things I want are always so far away and so hard to get?"I said it when I was heartbroken that my childhood friend was dating the person she liked, which was our senior a high school student. It was a past I wanted to forget, just remembering it always made me feel sick somewhere.My mother simply replied, "That's life Rey!""What do you mean? Can you explain it to me?""Ah ... I can't answer that now Rey!"say it with a gentle smile.Until her passing, she had not given me that answer, only the feeling of loss was overwhelming when I saw her buried in the cemetery.Indeed it was my fault, since entering high school and afflicted by various problems, I closed myself a little from my mother, I closed myself because the problems I faced were so heavy that I could not say it because it could embarrass my parents, even though the truth was just slander.I couldn't give her anything y