“it would be good to find love, wouldn't it be?."“Yeah but not unreciprocated love, the kind of love that exists in both parties, that kind of love would be good."“Yeah, it would be something that I could dream of all day. I would be blessed to finally fall in love."“Have you ever been in love before?."“No, not once."“Why?."“I would say I didn't have the time to love I had focus on building a good life for my partner and I didn't want my kids to suffer what I had suffered."“That's sweet."“Thank you."“It's funny that I don't know your name and I feel that were friends already."“Yes, we're friends, tell me your name first and then I'll tell you mine." " My name's Ará. “" No last name?. “" I prefer not to use it, I prefer not to mention it at all I just go with Ará.“" You have a beautiful name. “" It's french and it's pronounced Ay-ray, it's funny cause it's only a three later word. “ I watched him laugh, he had a charming laugh, he was sweeping me off my feet already.“wha

“Oh I'm so foolish Darwin, I got married to a man I just met. “ As soon as the words left her mouth it came straight to my heart and pierced it. “You're married?." I asked her. She started to cry again. I held her close to me. This was all my fault. I left her and another man came and took her away from me. “Please, stop crying."“I'm sorry. I can't stop crying, Darwin I hate him so much, so I left him, I had to."“It's fine you don't have to explain." We layed still for a while, we could have layed there forever as long as we we're together. Time seemed timeless as if it were merely a foolish factor and it didn't exist. Her head was on my chest and her eyes were shut. “Darwin." She called me.“Yes?." “Did you miss me?." She asked me.“To hell, I missed you so much."“Did you think of me?."“Yes."“How much."“Too much."“Dee, tell me what's going on with you."“You called me Dee."“Yeah you don't like it?."“I do, I really do, it sounds sexy coming from your mouth.

I went to bed that night thinking of Darwin. He was literally right beside me. I turned to look at him, he was fast asleep. I touched his hair, and then I ran my finger across his eye brows and I couldn't help but place a kiss on his lips. It's funny how we met, it is a strong sign that we were meant to be together and things would actually change for the better. I wore a big smile on my cheek and eventually I fell asleep. I was greeted with a dream that was scary and also frighteningly vivid, as if I was standing there and seeing everything by myself. And as much as I tried to, I couldn't wake up. I could see everybody but they couldn't see me, it was like I was reliving a memory but this time I could witness it from another perspective. The dream goes thus; Ash was angry, I could see how her skin grew red, I saw her hands shook at her side and her lips quivered. Then she ran up the stairs, I followed her. Her tiny feet made loud thomps on the wooden stairs.

We were standing downstairs In the parking lot when they arrived.“They're here, baby.““I swear I don't want to go with them.““You'll be fine with them."“They look too scary."“They look professional, they're very effective, have it in mind that you'll be safe."“When are you going to be back."“Tomorrow."“Promise me you'll be back by tomorrow."“I promise you."“When you come back, promise me that you'll tell me everything."“I don't think I can do that."“Darwinson, it's me Ará, your one and only love, trust me."“Ará, I trust you, I do, but I don't want you to see that side of me."“What side."“The violent side."“Would it scare me."“Yes."" Is it enough for it to make me leave you?. “" Even if you want to leave me, Ará, I'm not leaving you. “Then she laughed. And she said. “If you don't want to tell me, it's fine, but you'll have to tell me one day, you have to open up, opening up is key, you told me that with your own mouth." " I love you. “ I told her. " I mean it. “S

We all have our demons, are we a part of them or are they a part of us. That wasn't an important question, the important question is who is a slave to who... Most times we are being controlled by our fears and we try as much as possible to run away from them and then they tell us to face our fears and we should do it while being scared and that in a very short while, our fears would be nothing. Then it leads me to ask, what are fears if not constructs of our own mind, our own imagination. Now it brings me to ask again, who's side is the mind on, is the mind on our side or is it just acting on its own, without our help, is our mind a part of us or are we a part of our mind. It is true that we act the way we think and that's why self limiting beliefs are damnation unto men and then these words: “I think therefore I am or I act therefore I am." Has been debated for years, Rene Descartes wrote at length about it. But truly somethings are not meant to be explained and some cases